camouflage camels.
if livejournal were my child, why, I would certainly be accused of neglect!
what a great weekend it has been!
hanging with brent. getting the house rearranged. whatever, whatnot.
all of that good stuff. and more.
although, I feel like I've somewhat slipped into carelessness, lately.
with everything. I'm probably my own biggest disappointment.
school, especially. I didn't do as well as I wanted to, or am capable of. this I know.
it bugs me. but. I'll find my knack and I know it.
anyhow. brent leaves in just a few days. tuesday, to be exact.
bummer.
major bummer.
I'm really happy for him, though. I want to see him do well and succeed in what he does best.
but on the other hand, I am going to miss him terribly.
I don't know. sometimes I'm on the up and up with this whole deal and sometimes pretty down low.
but I know that I'd miss him if things weren't to be.
so I know I care, though I don't always show it.
I haven't really let myself get close to anyone, or anything this past year.
I'm riding out this huge guilt trip, once again, brought on by no one but myself.
I get really irritated with myself, a lot.
and all of a sudden get really tired and can't think anymore.
and all I came here to do was to post a survey I found a bit interesting.
then the thoughts marched in.
end of story.