Concession
This has been a fantastic experience, and I want to thank everyone who has contributed to it. What began as an experiment over the course of these last few months became a pleasure. But now it is time to close this chapter and move on for a while.
I have enjoyed writing for an audience, small though it may be, and genuinely appreciate those of you who have been kind with your remarks every week. I’ve collected enough data to demonstrate a proof of concept, of sorts, in response to Shima’s theory that people would want to read the stories from my life I’m so careful to record - her thinking being that I should share them with more than just the two of us. It seems that some people might. A small handful of you could be interested. Or perhaps you’re just being kind. Or perhaps you’re just fishing for votes. It’s so hard to tell... how is one to ever really know? And perhaps I might find more certainty in a different environment. But I will spend some time considering whether or not finding such a space would be a noble pursuit before actively searching for it.
We have reached the point on this ride after which those who remain are pointedly focused on striving toward an end goal - that of winning. The competition element of this game never appealed that much to me. I just came here to prove to myself that I could do this. And I believe I have done that. It’s not like anyone asked me to actually talk about myself. But, ultimately, though, I’m not a writer. I’m just a journaler, telling stories of the things I’ve seen and done. And if I were going to continue trying to move forward, I’d have a hard time doing that, while remaining true to myself, as I’d soon have to consider what kind of stories would be most likely to get me the most votes. And that’s just not who I am.
I am grateful for the contacts I have made; interesting people with fascinating lives... I hope to stay in touch. Perhaps I might be more comfortable in the “home game,” where I can’t be voted off the island. Perhaps I may see some of you there.
Good luck to all who continue.
~Q.