May 30, 2007 13:19
do you ever get the feeling people expect way too much from you?
dress this way, say these things, laugh at this.
do you ever feel like you over-advertised?
it's your own fault they think this. you tried all your life to pretend you were capable of anything so that no one would ever doubt you.
its like being the first to raise your hand in elementary school. i think that goes in a permanent record somewhere and haunts you the rest of your life.
yeah, i bet you used to be an over achiever.
you want to slack off now, but the guilt is overwhelming. everyone is worried.
its funny because i had a friend in high school who was actually not a dumb kid. but he had pretended to be since the day he started kindergarten so that no one would expect anything from him.
why werent we all blessed with that knowledge?
why dont people make up excuses for your behavior?
i need a vacation. i need to go crazy again.
im so much happier when i have no idea whats going on around me.