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[interwebgeek]

I um. Appreciate all those who c-came for my p-party. But, I don't think that'll be happening again.

So, thanks for all the, uh, memories. It was a good time.

Why does it always happen like this?

I'm gonna dive back into my work, so you might not see me for a while. I've been neglecting my experiments.

Do they all hate us?

((ooc:Angst after

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[scented_dark]

*raises eyebrow* Is there any particular reason you feel that way? Personally, I'm not terribly fond of parties either, but yours wasn't nearly as disastrous as some I've attended.

......What exactly do you mean? And who is 'they'?

[interwebgeek]

Um, well. I'm just not very good at h-hosting them, is all.

Humans. Do they all hate reapers? Because I didn't ask to be one, you know. And I don't want to be one if it means that my friends... hate me.

[scented_dark]

Well, I suppose I can sympathize there. Just ask Aerith. *shakes head*

......*narrows eyes* No. No, they don't. Some people...just don't like what they don't understand. It's ignorance, and it's fear.

None of us asked for this. But we do the best we can. And anyone who hates you because of what you are is not a true friend.

[interwebgeek]

I d-don't think I know Aerith.

Th-that's not true. They were true friends to me. For much longer than anyone else has ever been! It isn't their fault that I'm like this!

[scented_dark]

She can be a bit overwhelming at times, but I suppose she means well. I could introduce you if you'd like.

*sigh* Ranyl... I'm afraid it's a bit more complicated than that. And it's not your fault, either. It's not anybody's fault. It's just the way things are. Don't ever let anyone convince you otherwise.

We are who we are, for better or for worse. You may not like it, but if you cannot learn to accept yourself, then there's nothing I can do to help you.

[interwebgeek]

W-well, there's a l-lot of work that I need to, um, catch up on. B-but thanks for the offer.

Just like them hating me is just the way things are. It's not anything but the way things are. I'm... I'm okay w-with that.

I used to accept myself. Before all these changes, that I never asked for. I w-was... content! And th-then I was happy. And now I'm... Now I'm alone again.
Th-that's the second time I've heard that tonight. *short, bitter laugh to hide the tears*

[scented_dark]

...Of course.

Are you? Because it doesn't really sound like it.

Happiness is something you have to work towards, Ranyl. It doesn't always come easy, and it won't come at all if you can't live with who you are. And you're only alone if you choose to be. There is always someone there if you are willing to look.

*sigh* For what it's worth, I'm sorry.

Tears make Ranyl verbose, wtf?

[interwebgeek]

*sigh*

No, of course I'm not okay.

There WAS someone there, Zexion. He was there and he took care of me and helped me and was the best damn friend I've ever had.
And you know what? I knew it wouldn't last, okay? It never does. I just... I thought it would be different this time. And I guess it doesn't matter if it's over because I'm a reaper or because I've done something to screw it all up. I just didn't think it would be because I was upset that he told someone something he shouldn't have!

If you're t-truly sorry, then leave him alone. Please.