Mid August '07
So my self-esteem is too great for my own good.
It's not that I'm just realizing it, it's just that I'm worried that it will kill me eventually. And I know where.
Which is possibly a subclause of why I'm really stressed out this Summer and all of next year.
Which won't be stated on livejournal.
Anyway, I'm not going to mention Summer Reading.
Oh! I saw Sam yesterday <3. My ex-girlfriend. She's beautiful, I love her, and she has a crush on a boy who "is Howard Roark", yet I doubt that.
I leave tomorrow for Vermont. I'm excited, sort of. Honestly, I don't want to be pressured into drinking/smoking every night (even though to the Izenbergs, that's family bonding). I won't smoke there. I swear to myself.
I can't believe I wrote this out in an entry. Pretty much a wasted effort, but it feels good to be updated.
It's not that I'm just realizing it, it's just that I'm worried that it will kill me eventually. And I know where.
Which is possibly a subclause of why I'm really stressed out this Summer and all of next year.
Which won't be stated on livejournal.
Anyway, I'm not going to mention Summer Reading.
Oh! I saw Sam yesterday <3. My ex-girlfriend. She's beautiful, I love her, and she has a crush on a boy who "is Howard Roark", yet I doubt that.
I leave tomorrow for Vermont. I'm excited, sort of. Honestly, I don't want to be pressured into drinking/smoking every night (even though to the Izenbergs, that's family bonding). I won't smoke there. I swear to myself.
I can't believe I wrote this out in an entry. Pretty much a wasted effort, but it feels good to be updated.