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So... today's the last day of 2010. Although I would like to usher this day with much anticipation, I guess I can't bring myself to do it after all. 2010 has been one of the emptiest years of my life. I feel as if I've left a lot of things undone, a lot of things unsaid, and in the case of this journal, a lot of things unwritten. For one, I haven't been as enthusiastic a blogger as before.
This year is a year where I truly delved deeply into a state of sloth. There were so many commitments to make and responsibilities to shoulder, but I didn't do so, or at least, I didn't do it with my best ability. I was lazy with the desire to do things that I wanted to do and not things that I had to do. Because of that, much of what I have built was driven to the verge of crumbling apart. I was too lazy to maintain & support them.
Really, I feel that a lot of the undesirable events which occurred during the course of 2010 could be prevented had I not been the indifferent, burnt out person I was. I'm guessing academics really played a great part in draining me of my vigour & passion, but in the end, the arrows will come pointing at me. There's no space for excuses.
In 2011, there's a turn for me to make.