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every year at every season everything is the same
my hair is the same length at the same season every year.
i have the same problems every beginning of the school year no matter who with. january brings a change. february should be meaningful, but i can't say that it is. i become so driven to fix everything each spring. and take action each summer.
going to ohio this summer i had the biggest intentions. as soon as i got there i knew my calculations failed me. haha. i learned so much just by sitting by my phone each morning from 7:00am to 7:00pm waiting for anyone to call. to actually enjoy a conversation with my father, or better yet to even have a conversation with him. to converse with cats and dogs all day and to eat cerial with ants in it. to catch rabbits in the middle of the night in the middle of the road so ironically the day after you were looking to buy one i know that everything is so perfectly placed that i swear to God that i could predict the future. To watch Chris and Kim and know that that is me. Lara and Nikola and that is me. No relationships vary no matter if your 16 and 17. 19 and 20. 29 and 24. but to actually see my corruptive brother show emotions and to hear him tell me he really really cares for Kim is probably the weirdest thing I have ever hear. But then only hours later he is looking at other girls I realize that no one changes. To think that my arch enemy and I had become close over those two weeks and to come back home and have that person give me pills and i know its out of love for me but then they refuse to even speak to you over your own problem. The first time I ever smoked weed-with my brother, the first time i ever took pills-with my brother. what is a brother and what is a lover?
to drink wine with your brothers under the stars.
my hair is the same length at the same season every year.
i have the same problems every beginning of the school year no matter who with. january brings a change. february should be meaningful, but i can't say that it is. i become so driven to fix everything each spring. and take action each summer.
going to ohio this summer i had the biggest intentions. as soon as i got there i knew my calculations failed me. haha. i learned so much just by sitting by my phone each morning from 7:00am to 7:00pm waiting for anyone to call. to actually enjoy a conversation with my father, or better yet to even have a conversation with him. to converse with cats and dogs all day and to eat cerial with ants in it. to catch rabbits in the middle of the night in the middle of the road so ironically the day after you were looking to buy one i know that everything is so perfectly placed that i swear to God that i could predict the future. To watch Chris and Kim and know that that is me. Lara and Nikola and that is me. No relationships vary no matter if your 16 and 17. 19 and 20. 29 and 24. but to actually see my corruptive brother show emotions and to hear him tell me he really really cares for Kim is probably the weirdest thing I have ever hear. But then only hours later he is looking at other girls I realize that no one changes. To think that my arch enemy and I had become close over those two weeks and to come back home and have that person give me pills and i know its out of love for me but then they refuse to even speak to you over your own problem. The first time I ever smoked weed-with my brother, the first time i ever took pills-with my brother. what is a brother and what is a lover?
to drink wine with your brothers under the stars.