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Realized last night while Josh and I were chatting and talking about good 'ole Livejournal that it was time for me to update again.
Can't believe June is almost over and we are crossing into the second half of the year.
Spent the end of last week moving into our new apartment.
We ended up moving back into the first complex that Sarah and I ever lived in.
Funny how some things come full circle without you even trying. :P
The apartment is kind of expensive but its remodeled and with Matthew staying with us for a bit, any little bit will help out right now.
I've shaved 20 minutes off my commute to work and the gym is about 5 minutes down the road so have nothing to complain about as far at that all goes.
Super excited to have a couple of pools to be able to just hang at this summer.
I bought a pretty expensive bathing suit and would like to get to wear it more than a few times.
We had a few little issues within the apartment but most of it has been fixed so trying not to stress over all of that.
Moving didn't go as smoothly as it could have but moving sucks anyway so it honestly doesn't matter.
It was a bit of bad timing since I had already asked for work off to go to Vegas with Kymber for the weekend.
I somehow managed to make everything work though!
We left last Friday for Vegas, I came back home on Sunday.
We drove so I finally took my car on its first official road trip! Woo!
I really did have a really good time and didn't want to come home even though I was tapped out in the money department haha.
We did a lot in a short amount of time.
Had my first sushi burrito which was pretty good.
We had to pick up Kymbers husband Chris from the airport Friday evening so once we did that, we changed and ended up walking to the strip.
Our hotel room was about a 25 minute walk to the strip which was pretty convenient minus the fact that it was hella hot out.
We walked almost the entire strip Friday night.
I tried to take as many pictures as possible since I haven't been down there since I was like 15.
Chris was pretty much power walking which made it hard to keep up and also felt like we were rushing through it all too.
Kym and I had 1 drink while we were on the strip, didn't have any intentions of getting smashed while we were there and that definitely didn't happen.
We woke up Saturday morning and decided to go to Madame Tussauds wax museum which was pretty cool!
Some of the characters didn't look anything like the real thing.
It was still entertaining regardless, Kym and I took a bunch of pictures.
We then experienced a 4D Avengers show for about 15 minutes at the end of the tour through all the celebs.
After that we went back to the hotel, Chris' parents brought the kids over so we could go swimming for a few hours.
We ate at a German restaurant that afternoon, name of it was Hofbrauhaus Las Vegas.
My stomach was pretty upset most of that day so I didn't eat a lot.
After the late lunch, we lounged around for a little bit before we needed to shower and get ready to see the Backstreet Boys in concert at the Axis, Planet Hollywood.
BEST. CONCERT. EVER.
Omggggg it was so good!
We had pretty good seats so obviously a great view of the stage.
They did phenomenal!
Kym and I have seen them in concert in the past and we're even closer to the stage then but this was Vegas so the experience was going to be amazing regardless of where we were at.
The concert lasted about 2 hours and probably the 4th to last song, AJ came running down the aisle behind us and then Howie followed.
They all ended up performing a song RIGHT behind us, just posted up at different areas in the room.
It was SO cool being that close to a Backstreet Boy.
Geeze, listen to me. Fan girl BIG TIME ovah here! :D
In all seriousness though, they always put on a great show and I would always go to see them if I had the chance.
After the concert we stopped and grabbed a super late dinner, it was around 11:30pm.
Then we hit up a small little bar for 3 shots of Patron.
Kym is my girl when it comes to tequila.
Nobody else will really drink it with me haha
The only bad part was we planned to head home after the shots because our feet were killing us from the shoes we wore for the concert aaannnddd we got lost trying to get back to the area where the Ubers/Lyfts pick up hahaha
That's what we get for drinking alcohol and then trying to navigate a place we aren't familiar with.
A little off topic but this past weekend was the first time I had ever taken an Uber/Lyft.
Pricing wasn't high but realistically, we probably should have stayed on the strip.
Hotel rooms just weren't within price range this time around so we made due with what we could afford and it honestly turned out pretty decent.
All the drivers we had were pretty cool/chill except for the one who almost killed us dropping us off for the concert.
He was on a mission, that's for sure!
Sunday morning we woke up, I packed up pretty much everything and we headed across the street to the Hard Rock Hotel and Casino for breakfast.
We walked around the entire bottom floor checking out all the memorabilia.
I left around 12:30pm and made it home just after 5pm.
Driving more than 2 hours by yourself gets boring pretty quickly.
Of course I had plenty of music to listen to but eventually the music alone just doesn't cut it.
I took Monday off just to recoop from the weekend and also get my room in order.
I'd definitely visit Vegas again in the future although I'd like to really experience the strip and be able to gamble and drink the next time around.
Robert and I started planning 3 weeks ago to go back to NJ and spend time with Jarrod and Sandy in October.
Sandy said she could pay for Robert's ticket at the time so I figured why the hell not???
Robert invited some girl I believe he's been seeing so I was getting ready to purchase the tickets 2 days ago when Sandy tells me that Jarrod told her that they are not going to pay for Roberts ticket. -_-
Well, I text Robert to let him know that this year isn't happening and we said we might as well wait and try to go next year.
Honestly, the trip is probably never going to happen.
Everyone has advised that Robert isn't good with his money, really not a shocker to be honest.
Since Kelly had already approved my time off request, I text Crystal to see if she had anything going on that weekend and she said no soooo I booked a plane ticket to go back to PA October 6-10 instead.
Crystal and I haven't seen each other in almost 3 years.
DAMN, I just realized I went back and saw them in AR in November of 2014.
I've never been to PA so adding another state to my list!
This year is turning out to be the year of travel.
Sidenote: Kym and Chris are moving from CO to OR in the next month so that'll be another place for me to visit next year at some point!
Been talking about possibly going to CA with Cheyanne and Nick the weekend before/of 4th of July weekend but pretty sure that's not going to happen.
They had a road-trip planned to get her cousin from PA and bring her back to AZ but her cousin took a high paying job in NJ and decided to stay out there instead.
They've got their trip planned, I was just going to tag along for a little bit.
I haven't seen or been to the beach in soooooo long.
Maybe I'll go to CA the weekend of Labor Day in September, would just need to find somebody to come with me since I don't think I want to go by myself.
Chances of that happening are SUPER slim.
Friends are still pretty unavailable these days.
Josh has been making a HUGE effort to talk and hang out more these days since he graduated from nursing school.
He's currently working overnights and is trying to get onto a day shift with the weekends off.
He interviewed this week and I think he has a pretty great chance of getting the job but fingers crossed still anyway!!!
Its been a hot minute since I've seen Nick and Amanda so they'll be next on the list to hang out with.
Amanda actually just text me a little bit ago, asking where we moved to and mentioned that we need to get together still.
The issue a lot these days is everyone's schedules seem to clash.
I did spend some time with Brook and Amanda over Memorial Day weekend.
Haven't seen them since though.
I've pretty much retreated back into just spending time with the family or myself.
Any hopes for even finding a guy to spend time with has been completely crushed.
I'm officially a certified sidechick.
I technically have 2 different stories I could share but I think I'm going to leave them off of here for the time being.
Both are pretty inappropriate and at the rate of ruining some peoples lives, I'll just keep the information to myself. :)
The more weight I lose, the more appealing I become.
Not that I wasn't before, my chest has always been the main focus and it's only going to get worse in the next 6 months.
Since the beginning of this year has not gone well as far as me staying on track and moving forward instead of just maintaining, I'm about to hardcore buckle down and work on losing these last 60 lbs that HAVE to come off of me.
I'm still pretty active but my eating habits are just off base for the gazillionth time.
Eating healthy/smarter is hard and if anyone tells you that it gets easier, it doesn't.
I can tell you how weird it is to pay attention to your body and the changes that you're not used to.
There are days where I wish I had started focusing on myself like 5 years ago.
There are days where I want to give up and just say fuck it.
There are days where my motivation is so strong that I'm dying to get out of work to get to the gym.
Every day is different.
I know I have to get back into a routine because if I don't, all of this hard work is going to go to waste.
I started talking to another guy I used to work with at O2, his name is Sebastian.
He worked in IT with Tyler. (I still am talking to Tyler but not near as much as I was.)
He messaged me on IG about 2 weeks ago, started hitting on me and as of the past 2 days, hasn't been responding.
We were talking about hanging out and I've been trying to make plans with him but he backed off.
I know he got what he wanted and he's over it.
This is how EVERY guy operates these days.
I'm just stupid enough to fall for it every damn time.
.sighs.
I don't get it though.
I'm so frustrated trying to figure out why I'm not worth dating, just being used.
What I really want to do is get back to me like how I was last year, so focused on just taking care of myself and ignoring everyone else around me.
I've been sucked into BS and I can't seem to pull myself out of it.
This post is getting pretty lengthy. Whoops.
To wrap everything up, Charlie and I haven't seen each other in probably a month again.
There's shit going on with him and he refuses to talk about it so I have no choice but to just let him go.
I don't know what he wants from me.
I can't keep playing this game with him though.
People have wrecked my worth.
Knowing that all I can do is push forward is starting to feel hopeless.
< / 3.
Can't believe June is almost over and we are crossing into the second half of the year.
Spent the end of last week moving into our new apartment.
We ended up moving back into the first complex that Sarah and I ever lived in.
Funny how some things come full circle without you even trying. :P
The apartment is kind of expensive but its remodeled and with Matthew staying with us for a bit, any little bit will help out right now.
I've shaved 20 minutes off my commute to work and the gym is about 5 minutes down the road so have nothing to complain about as far at that all goes.
Super excited to have a couple of pools to be able to just hang at this summer.
I bought a pretty expensive bathing suit and would like to get to wear it more than a few times.
We had a few little issues within the apartment but most of it has been fixed so trying not to stress over all of that.
Moving didn't go as smoothly as it could have but moving sucks anyway so it honestly doesn't matter.
It was a bit of bad timing since I had already asked for work off to go to Vegas with Kymber for the weekend.
I somehow managed to make everything work though!
We left last Friday for Vegas, I came back home on Sunday.
We drove so I finally took my car on its first official road trip! Woo!
I really did have a really good time and didn't want to come home even though I was tapped out in the money department haha.
We did a lot in a short amount of time.
Had my first sushi burrito which was pretty good.
We had to pick up Kymbers husband Chris from the airport Friday evening so once we did that, we changed and ended up walking to the strip.
Our hotel room was about a 25 minute walk to the strip which was pretty convenient minus the fact that it was hella hot out.
We walked almost the entire strip Friday night.
I tried to take as many pictures as possible since I haven't been down there since I was like 15.
Chris was pretty much power walking which made it hard to keep up and also felt like we were rushing through it all too.
Kym and I had 1 drink while we were on the strip, didn't have any intentions of getting smashed while we were there and that definitely didn't happen.
We woke up Saturday morning and decided to go to Madame Tussauds wax museum which was pretty cool!
Some of the characters didn't look anything like the real thing.
It was still entertaining regardless, Kym and I took a bunch of pictures.
We then experienced a 4D Avengers show for about 15 minutes at the end of the tour through all the celebs.
After that we went back to the hotel, Chris' parents brought the kids over so we could go swimming for a few hours.
We ate at a German restaurant that afternoon, name of it was Hofbrauhaus Las Vegas.
My stomach was pretty upset most of that day so I didn't eat a lot.
After the late lunch, we lounged around for a little bit before we needed to shower and get ready to see the Backstreet Boys in concert at the Axis, Planet Hollywood.
BEST. CONCERT. EVER.
Omggggg it was so good!
We had pretty good seats so obviously a great view of the stage.
They did phenomenal!
Kym and I have seen them in concert in the past and we're even closer to the stage then but this was Vegas so the experience was going to be amazing regardless of where we were at.
The concert lasted about 2 hours and probably the 4th to last song, AJ came running down the aisle behind us and then Howie followed.
They all ended up performing a song RIGHT behind us, just posted up at different areas in the room.
It was SO cool being that close to a Backstreet Boy.
Geeze, listen to me. Fan girl BIG TIME ovah here! :D
In all seriousness though, they always put on a great show and I would always go to see them if I had the chance.
After the concert we stopped and grabbed a super late dinner, it was around 11:30pm.
Then we hit up a small little bar for 3 shots of Patron.
Kym is my girl when it comes to tequila.
Nobody else will really drink it with me haha
The only bad part was we planned to head home after the shots because our feet were killing us from the shoes we wore for the concert aaannnddd we got lost trying to get back to the area where the Ubers/Lyfts pick up hahaha
That's what we get for drinking alcohol and then trying to navigate a place we aren't familiar with.
A little off topic but this past weekend was the first time I had ever taken an Uber/Lyft.
Pricing wasn't high but realistically, we probably should have stayed on the strip.
Hotel rooms just weren't within price range this time around so we made due with what we could afford and it honestly turned out pretty decent.
All the drivers we had were pretty cool/chill except for the one who almost killed us dropping us off for the concert.
He was on a mission, that's for sure!
Sunday morning we woke up, I packed up pretty much everything and we headed across the street to the Hard Rock Hotel and Casino for breakfast.
We walked around the entire bottom floor checking out all the memorabilia.
I left around 12:30pm and made it home just after 5pm.
Driving more than 2 hours by yourself gets boring pretty quickly.
Of course I had plenty of music to listen to but eventually the music alone just doesn't cut it.
I took Monday off just to recoop from the weekend and also get my room in order.
I'd definitely visit Vegas again in the future although I'd like to really experience the strip and be able to gamble and drink the next time around.
Robert and I started planning 3 weeks ago to go back to NJ and spend time with Jarrod and Sandy in October.
Sandy said she could pay for Robert's ticket at the time so I figured why the hell not???
Robert invited some girl I believe he's been seeing so I was getting ready to purchase the tickets 2 days ago when Sandy tells me that Jarrod told her that they are not going to pay for Roberts ticket. -_-
Well, I text Robert to let him know that this year isn't happening and we said we might as well wait and try to go next year.
Honestly, the trip is probably never going to happen.
Everyone has advised that Robert isn't good with his money, really not a shocker to be honest.
Since Kelly had already approved my time off request, I text Crystal to see if she had anything going on that weekend and she said no soooo I booked a plane ticket to go back to PA October 6-10 instead.
Crystal and I haven't seen each other in almost 3 years.
DAMN, I just realized I went back and saw them in AR in November of 2014.
I've never been to PA so adding another state to my list!
This year is turning out to be the year of travel.
Sidenote: Kym and Chris are moving from CO to OR in the next month so that'll be another place for me to visit next year at some point!
Been talking about possibly going to CA with Cheyanne and Nick the weekend before/of 4th of July weekend but pretty sure that's not going to happen.
They had a road-trip planned to get her cousin from PA and bring her back to AZ but her cousin took a high paying job in NJ and decided to stay out there instead.
They've got their trip planned, I was just going to tag along for a little bit.
I haven't seen or been to the beach in soooooo long.
Maybe I'll go to CA the weekend of Labor Day in September, would just need to find somebody to come with me since I don't think I want to go by myself.
Chances of that happening are SUPER slim.
Friends are still pretty unavailable these days.
Josh has been making a HUGE effort to talk and hang out more these days since he graduated from nursing school.
He's currently working overnights and is trying to get onto a day shift with the weekends off.
He interviewed this week and I think he has a pretty great chance of getting the job but fingers crossed still anyway!!!
Its been a hot minute since I've seen Nick and Amanda so they'll be next on the list to hang out with.
Amanda actually just text me a little bit ago, asking where we moved to and mentioned that we need to get together still.
The issue a lot these days is everyone's schedules seem to clash.
I did spend some time with Brook and Amanda over Memorial Day weekend.
Haven't seen them since though.
I've pretty much retreated back into just spending time with the family or myself.
Any hopes for even finding a guy to spend time with has been completely crushed.
I'm officially a certified sidechick.
I technically have 2 different stories I could share but I think I'm going to leave them off of here for the time being.
Both are pretty inappropriate and at the rate of ruining some peoples lives, I'll just keep the information to myself. :)
The more weight I lose, the more appealing I become.
Not that I wasn't before, my chest has always been the main focus and it's only going to get worse in the next 6 months.
Since the beginning of this year has not gone well as far as me staying on track and moving forward instead of just maintaining, I'm about to hardcore buckle down and work on losing these last 60 lbs that HAVE to come off of me.
I'm still pretty active but my eating habits are just off base for the gazillionth time.
Eating healthy/smarter is hard and if anyone tells you that it gets easier, it doesn't.
I can tell you how weird it is to pay attention to your body and the changes that you're not used to.
There are days where I wish I had started focusing on myself like 5 years ago.
There are days where I want to give up and just say fuck it.
There are days where my motivation is so strong that I'm dying to get out of work to get to the gym.
Every day is different.
I know I have to get back into a routine because if I don't, all of this hard work is going to go to waste.
I started talking to another guy I used to work with at O2, his name is Sebastian.
He worked in IT with Tyler. (I still am talking to Tyler but not near as much as I was.)
He messaged me on IG about 2 weeks ago, started hitting on me and as of the past 2 days, hasn't been responding.
We were talking about hanging out and I've been trying to make plans with him but he backed off.
I know he got what he wanted and he's over it.
This is how EVERY guy operates these days.
I'm just stupid enough to fall for it every damn time.
.sighs.
I don't get it though.
I'm so frustrated trying to figure out why I'm not worth dating, just being used.
What I really want to do is get back to me like how I was last year, so focused on just taking care of myself and ignoring everyone else around me.
I've been sucked into BS and I can't seem to pull myself out of it.
This post is getting pretty lengthy. Whoops.
To wrap everything up, Charlie and I haven't seen each other in probably a month again.
There's shit going on with him and he refuses to talk about it so I have no choice but to just let him go.
I don't know what he wants from me.
I can't keep playing this game with him though.
People have wrecked my worth.
Knowing that all I can do is push forward is starting to feel hopeless.
< / 3.