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I feel completely trapped into going to prom with Ronnie......like completely traped with no way out.
I asked Patrick and he said that he would go with me if i couldnt find a date......but he just had to mention to Ronnie that i had asked him. Could it possible get any worse?!?! Yes....because now every time we talk he asks me about it.....and i hate lieing to him....or not telling how i really feel about it. I would rather go with Patrick than him, and now he is asking me how i feel about Patrick....and i dont want to open a whole new can of worms.....GOD DAMIT IT IS SOOOOO REDICULUOUS!!!
i know that prom is a big deal and that its a big deal for Ronnie since it is his Sr. year, but you know what, its a big deal for me. I want a date who i am comfprtable with, who i am guarenteed to have a good time with, who i have known for a long time. I want to go with Patrick.
Why is everyone else pushing so much for somehting i dont know....the more you push.....the more i feel cornered....the more likly i am to say no.....and thats exactly what Ronnie is doing...as well as everyone else who is pushing for me to got to prom with him.
Why is it always like this? Why cant i make a decision i am happy with and not have to worry about hurting anyone elses feelings or stepping on anyone elses toes. (I guess that means i need to talk to Jay about it...so i can get his approval). I really dont like the situation....and the sad thing is, i didnt even get myself into this one....everyone else has.
Maybe i just wolent go to prom, and that would solve everything for everyone else....jsut not me wanting to go to prom with Patrick.
Ill think on it....
later kidz
Oh yeah and HAPPY EASTER !!!!! :)
I asked Patrick and he said that he would go with me if i couldnt find a date......but he just had to mention to Ronnie that i had asked him. Could it possible get any worse?!?! Yes....because now every time we talk he asks me about it.....and i hate lieing to him....or not telling how i really feel about it. I would rather go with Patrick than him, and now he is asking me how i feel about Patrick....and i dont want to open a whole new can of worms.....GOD DAMIT IT IS SOOOOO REDICULUOUS!!!
i know that prom is a big deal and that its a big deal for Ronnie since it is his Sr. year, but you know what, its a big deal for me. I want a date who i am comfprtable with, who i am guarenteed to have a good time with, who i have known for a long time. I want to go with Patrick.
Why is everyone else pushing so much for somehting i dont know....the more you push.....the more i feel cornered....the more likly i am to say no.....and thats exactly what Ronnie is doing...as well as everyone else who is pushing for me to got to prom with him.
Why is it always like this? Why cant i make a decision i am happy with and not have to worry about hurting anyone elses feelings or stepping on anyone elses toes. (I guess that means i need to talk to Jay about it...so i can get his approval). I really dont like the situation....and the sad thing is, i didnt even get myself into this one....everyone else has.
Maybe i just wolent go to prom, and that would solve everything for everyone else....jsut not me wanting to go to prom with Patrick.
Ill think on it....
later kidz
Oh yeah and HAPPY EASTER !!!!! :)