Nov 01, 2005 20:06
topic of crying came up. its quite weird. as i write sometimes i feel like crying when i just think about evrything. and yet i never can. maybe i dont want to. i mean fuck nothing is even sad. its just me. i make it sad haha. i laugh at it right now. i dont even care to cry. i dont care to be someone who is recognized. i dont care to have many friends.
there is always a period were there is one incodent where you relize who people really are. no matter how close you think you are with that person this one incodent changes your aspect on them greatly. and man this incident came. and man i see the truth. i see how they all are. i see how they treat. i see what its like to be on the other side. once you see that you know if they are true or not. and to tell the truth i dont think they are that true.
i lie. everyone does. i dont think its that bad i mean its all about waht your lying about. if your lie is goign to effect people and the way people think of other people and so forth. then done lie. its to a certain extend a lie is carried out that its worth is seen. i mean to God a lie is a lie. but then on earth a lie isnt just a lie some lies are worse then others.
to hold someone to the way they were acting under any influence is not right. they were not themselves. its not them your judging. its there changed bodys and minds. have you ever thought about a fortune cookie. i mean they dont even tell your fortune. i mean its like oh you are goign to be rewarded for being a good listener. how does a cookie even know that. its like okay crazy cookie why are yo utelling me this. psh cookies these days.