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I just woke up after a dream where i blew apart in a nitroglycerin bomb in a hotel, and for a brief second i ceased to exist and i gotta admit, it felt pretty good. i could actually feel getting ripped apart and disintegrating, and it was just a relief to finally let go of everything, and i didn't think at all for a few seconds, and then my body noticed it wasn't dead and put me back together again. I feel... different.