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YES! I finally figured out my voicemail password. I had forgotten it but I was messing around with numbers and I finally got it woo hoo! So now I can check my messages, not that anyone calls me anyway ;/
Well thing's are still rocky in my "personal" matters I just don't know anymore what I should do with my life I'm finding myself wondering "what if" I didn't make the choices I had and if I shouldn't have accepted some things that were clearly wrong and a sign of the things to come in the future. I'm not sure what to do next I'm trying to go day by day but it seems like everyday theres a new problem arising. You know when you feel you should let go but you just can't make yourself do so? That's how I feel. I hate it. I just don't feel I'm getting the attention or honesty I deserve. This is an awful time of year to be having problems, stuck in the house because of the cold. I'm pretty much forced into thinking about how messed up things are. I'll try and stay positive and think with time things will turn out the way they should. I sure hope I'm right though. I still love, but I'm not sure if I am loved.
I've got a ton of things to do and I haven't made any effort to do so I just lose all my motivation when I think about my relationship probs. I've got to go open a new bank account, re-new my health card, find a job, start paying rent, look for other places to live, take care of myself better, I basically need a new life makeover, I've been stuck in this dark RUT for months and it's doing nothing but negative things to my mind and body. It's a good thing I realize all this instead of me letting it drag out more. I just need to build the strength up to get my ass in gear.
As I mentioned in my last post I was going to get a Victoria's Secret card well I doubt that will be happening unless I get it for Valentines Day. Oh well ;( Such is life.
Well thing's are still rocky in my "personal" matters I just don't know anymore what I should do with my life I'm finding myself wondering "what if" I didn't make the choices I had and if I shouldn't have accepted some things that were clearly wrong and a sign of the things to come in the future. I'm not sure what to do next I'm trying to go day by day but it seems like everyday theres a new problem arising. You know when you feel you should let go but you just can't make yourself do so? That's how I feel. I hate it. I just don't feel I'm getting the attention or honesty I deserve. This is an awful time of year to be having problems, stuck in the house because of the cold. I'm pretty much forced into thinking about how messed up things are. I'll try and stay positive and think with time things will turn out the way they should. I sure hope I'm right though. I still love, but I'm not sure if I am loved.
I've got a ton of things to do and I haven't made any effort to do so I just lose all my motivation when I think about my relationship probs. I've got to go open a new bank account, re-new my health card, find a job, start paying rent, look for other places to live, take care of myself better, I basically need a new life makeover, I've been stuck in this dark RUT for months and it's doing nothing but negative things to my mind and body. It's a good thing I realize all this instead of me letting it drag out more. I just need to build the strength up to get my ass in gear.
As I mentioned in my last post I was going to get a Victoria's Secret card well I doubt that will be happening unless I get it for Valentines Day. Oh well ;( Such is life.