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I'm really stressed about college stuff and band and my schedule and play production and lots of other things. Ughhhh.
I don't even really feel like talking about college stuff because I'm so sick of talking about it. Basically, I'm currently ranked number 1 in the class with a 3.96 GPA (yeah, holy crap). But it won't be like that for long because I only have four academic classes and you need five classes to calculate your GPA. So one of my CP-level electives will be calculated into my GPA, probably bringing it way down. It just sucks to think that I COULD'VE been valedictorian if it wasn't for stupid schedule crap. And me being stupid and taking three electives. Colleges would rather see calculus, blah blah blah. No matter what, I'm screwed, because I'll only have four academic classes and what do colleges want to see? Oh yes, they want to see five. I almost want to say screw it and just go to a second-tier school, like Brandeis or UMass Amherst. But I know I'm better than that, and I don't want to throw all my hard work out the window.
I'M SO SCREWED!!! There's a possibility that I might have to drop Spanish and take Calculus which sucks because a)I did work over the summer for Spanish and I've been working hard in the class and b)I'll have to struggle to catch up with the rest of the Calculus class. I look around and all I see is doors being slammed in my face. No one's REALLY helping me. It's just, "You can't do this" and "You can't do that" and "Go see this person" and "Come back and see me tomorrow." Time's a wasting, people! I met with Ms. O'Hara today, who was somewhat helpful but also really good at stressing me out.
On to play production. I actually got a role (kind of). With a name! Hey, that's never happened before! I don't even like my role though. We're doing The Taming of the Shrew and I'm Baptista, the father of Bianca and Katharina. Well, obviously I'll be the mother. I'm just really not into playing that part. I had my heart set on the part of Katharina. Even Bianca would be ok. All I really know about the play is what I've seen is the movie Ten Things I Hate About You, but obviously Katharina and Bianca are the main roles. I'm like minor role/supporting actress type deal. Which is better than what I've had before, but still not what I really want. I just wish I was better at acting and singing so I could actually get a LEAD ROLE. I wish I could've been the one to sit there in play production and think, "Wow, I'm the SHREW! That's so awesome!" But no, not me. Never me. I don't even like inviting my parents to my shows. Because it's like, "Hey, let's go to Jen's show!" Nooooo more like, "Hey, let's go see other people's kids perform on stage!"
Yeah, so I really don't feel like doing this play. At all. It just seems like it's going to be a pain in the ass.
Hey, look! I blocked anonymous comments so if any of you cowards out there want to anonymously tell me that I'm a selfish, pretentious bitch, then you can't! Fuckers.
I don't even really feel like talking about college stuff because I'm so sick of talking about it. Basically, I'm currently ranked number 1 in the class with a 3.96 GPA (yeah, holy crap). But it won't be like that for long because I only have four academic classes and you need five classes to calculate your GPA. So one of my CP-level electives will be calculated into my GPA, probably bringing it way down. It just sucks to think that I COULD'VE been valedictorian if it wasn't for stupid schedule crap. And me being stupid and taking three electives. Colleges would rather see calculus, blah blah blah. No matter what, I'm screwed, because I'll only have four academic classes and what do colleges want to see? Oh yes, they want to see five. I almost want to say screw it and just go to a second-tier school, like Brandeis or UMass Amherst. But I know I'm better than that, and I don't want to throw all my hard work out the window.
I'M SO SCREWED!!! There's a possibility that I might have to drop Spanish and take Calculus which sucks because a)I did work over the summer for Spanish and I've been working hard in the class and b)I'll have to struggle to catch up with the rest of the Calculus class. I look around and all I see is doors being slammed in my face. No one's REALLY helping me. It's just, "You can't do this" and "You can't do that" and "Go see this person" and "Come back and see me tomorrow." Time's a wasting, people! I met with Ms. O'Hara today, who was somewhat helpful but also really good at stressing me out.
On to play production. I actually got a role (kind of). With a name! Hey, that's never happened before! I don't even like my role though. We're doing The Taming of the Shrew and I'm Baptista, the father of Bianca and Katharina. Well, obviously I'll be the mother. I'm just really not into playing that part. I had my heart set on the part of Katharina. Even Bianca would be ok. All I really know about the play is what I've seen is the movie Ten Things I Hate About You, but obviously Katharina and Bianca are the main roles. I'm like minor role/supporting actress type deal. Which is better than what I've had before, but still not what I really want. I just wish I was better at acting and singing so I could actually get a LEAD ROLE. I wish I could've been the one to sit there in play production and think, "Wow, I'm the SHREW! That's so awesome!" But no, not me. Never me. I don't even like inviting my parents to my shows. Because it's like, "Hey, let's go to Jen's show!" Nooooo more like, "Hey, let's go see other people's kids perform on stage!"
Yeah, so I really don't feel like doing this play. At all. It just seems like it's going to be a pain in the ass.
Hey, look! I blocked anonymous comments so if any of you cowards out there want to anonymously tell me that I'm a selfish, pretentious bitch, then you can't! Fuckers.