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Why do people try to fix what isn't broken and ends up shattering things into pieces?
Why to people leave the broken alone and let them pick up their own pieces?
I hate it when I dream about you. When you clearly belong in my past. I thought dreams were supposed to be a happy place. A place where I can have the freedom to be who I want to be. And be with who I want to be, clearly it isn't you. I want nothing to do with you anymore. And I think we both know it's a lie when I say that.
Why is it so hard to find a job that you love? Where you feel a passion for the job. Where you can't wait to go to work everyday. What are the chances of getting something like that in your lifetime? But then again, how far can passion get you?
My bestfriend's back. From a trip that is long enough for him to be pregnant and have a kid. He's back and I'm happy beyond words. He's one person that I've missed dearly. Going off to watch Iron Man later. Joy. I'm not really excited for this movie. But then again, I'm hardly excited for much. I'll probably be abused by him later anyway.
My mother's away for the weekend. I'm so happy. Tonight's a lite night with my bestfriend. Tomorrow is free comic book day with CS. OH JOY. And this time I'm serious about being happy. I need to get my Emma Frost's single issues. And later in the day is sleepover day at my cousin's house. Its a much needed getaway, something I need with all the pent up fustrations are threatening to spill out. There were many times this week that I almost cried. Many times when I wanted to scream and throw things around just so that I could feel better. But that was not what should happen. I should cantrol my emotions and think things though. Make sure that I know what I'm doing and why I'm feeling this way. I blame it on the stress of studying. But it's funny, as to how studying makes me feel better about myself even though it causes me alot of stress and break-outs. It makes me feel like I have a direction in life.
BTW. No sleep tonight. Shabs told me that he wants a movie marathon at my place. So it's dvd shopping later and food shopping. I'm so dead.
List of things to do this weekend.
Public post today since I'm in a good mood.
Why to people leave the broken alone and let them pick up their own pieces?
I hate it when I dream about you. When you clearly belong in my past. I thought dreams were supposed to be a happy place. A place where I can have the freedom to be who I want to be. And be with who I want to be, clearly it isn't you. I want nothing to do with you anymore. And I think we both know it's a lie when I say that.
Why is it so hard to find a job that you love? Where you feel a passion for the job. Where you can't wait to go to work everyday. What are the chances of getting something like that in your lifetime? But then again, how far can passion get you?
My bestfriend's back. From a trip that is long enough for him to be pregnant and have a kid. He's back and I'm happy beyond words. He's one person that I've missed dearly. Going off to watch Iron Man later. Joy. I'm not really excited for this movie. But then again, I'm hardly excited for much. I'll probably be abused by him later anyway.
My mother's away for the weekend. I'm so happy. Tonight's a lite night with my bestfriend. Tomorrow is free comic book day with CS. OH JOY. And this time I'm serious about being happy. I need to get my Emma Frost's single issues. And later in the day is sleepover day at my cousin's house. Its a much needed getaway, something I need with all the pent up fustrations are threatening to spill out. There were many times this week that I almost cried. Many times when I wanted to scream and throw things around just so that I could feel better. But that was not what should happen. I should cantrol my emotions and think things though. Make sure that I know what I'm doing and why I'm feeling this way. I blame it on the stress of studying. But it's funny, as to how studying makes me feel better about myself even though it causes me alot of stress and break-outs. It makes me feel like I have a direction in life.
BTW. No sleep tonight. Shabs told me that he wants a movie marathon at my place. So it's dvd shopping later and food shopping. I'm so dead.
List of things to do this weekend.
- Finish my damn test.
- Go watch Iron Man with Shabs.
- Buy dvds to watch.
- GET COFFEE. (It's on the top of my list right now.)
- Study for test. (I've given up)
- Get the fic out. Or else Dee would have my head.
- Download ELT and FO.
- Tell Cat that I want to cut down on my working days if I dont get the hospital job. Needs to study.
- Change the colour of my nails.
- Probably do some exercise while I'm at it.
- Finish episode 8 of Personal Taste.
Public post today since I'm in a good mood.