The Answer
So...I've wanted to update the past three days or so but never did b/c I wasn't sure what to write.
For all the people who keep asking "What's going on with you and Dan?" [and this is highly directed at SARAH b/c i owed her a talk!!!!] well, after a few nights of us talking till 5:30 in the morning and signs that proved to me that things were a lot different, I realized tonight that I wanted to give it a try again...the last try. I asked him to be my boyfriend and he asked me to be his girlfriend.
I really don't know how things will end up (like he said: "I wish I could fast forward and see what happens with us"), but I do truly hope that out of everything that happened, we both learned stuff, even though I know that we both did.
I know a lot of people are saying "Danielle, you're a fucking moron" but this is my decision and I'm sticking by it. If it ends with me saying it was a mistake (which I'm truly hoping it doesn't end like that again, and also doesn't end at all) then it's my mistake and I learn from it.
We really did talk about EVERYTHING that we needed to talk about and also Kelley, Nelly and I can now just joke about it and move on. It is still going to take a lot for me to trust everyone in my life ONE HUNDRED PERCENT but it's worth it if things end up being good this time...not just good...but great. I just need to listen to my instincts, unlike last time, and my instincts now say that this is what I want, who I want and everyone in my life right now is who I want to be in it. <3
I have cut off from a few people and designated a name to put on the forehead of a certain whore we all know and I dislike intensely...but that's all other shit that really doesn't need to be worried about until the time comes. [Gizmo...that's right Mia]
Deep down in my heart I truly hope that I don't get hurt this time, and I'm hoping rather then "Once a cheater, always a cheater" it is in fact "People do change and they do learn from their mistakes." We shall see... And I shall hope...
In other news, I'm living back with my mom. I'm getting the rest of the stuff from Adam's tomorrow. We talked about it tonight and I did realize that I needed to not be there right now and he was glad I realized. Hah. For the time that I was there, it was fun and I will miss the bedtime CD we listened to while falling asleep. :)
One last thing: If there is something that I NEED to know and everyone else seems to know about it besides me...then TELL ME!!! I'll appreciate the truth rather then finding out from someone else later on and being extremely pissed and hurt! I'm trusting my friends and my boyfriend to tell me the HONEST TRUTH!
I hope everyone knows how much I truly do appreciate them for EVERYTHING.
<3<3<3<3<3
<3Danielle
For all the people who keep asking "What's going on with you and Dan?" [and this is highly directed at SARAH b/c i owed her a talk!!!!] well, after a few nights of us talking till 5:30 in the morning and signs that proved to me that things were a lot different, I realized tonight that I wanted to give it a try again...the last try. I asked him to be my boyfriend and he asked me to be his girlfriend.
I really don't know how things will end up (like he said: "I wish I could fast forward and see what happens with us"), but I do truly hope that out of everything that happened, we both learned stuff, even though I know that we both did.
I know a lot of people are saying "Danielle, you're a fucking moron" but this is my decision and I'm sticking by it. If it ends with me saying it was a mistake (which I'm truly hoping it doesn't end like that again, and also doesn't end at all) then it's my mistake and I learn from it.
We really did talk about EVERYTHING that we needed to talk about and also Kelley, Nelly and I can now just joke about it and move on. It is still going to take a lot for me to trust everyone in my life ONE HUNDRED PERCENT but it's worth it if things end up being good this time...not just good...but great. I just need to listen to my instincts, unlike last time, and my instincts now say that this is what I want, who I want and everyone in my life right now is who I want to be in it. <3
I have cut off from a few people and designated a name to put on the forehead of a certain whore we all know and I dislike intensely...but that's all other shit that really doesn't need to be worried about until the time comes. [Gizmo...that's right Mia]
Deep down in my heart I truly hope that I don't get hurt this time, and I'm hoping rather then "Once a cheater, always a cheater" it is in fact "People do change and they do learn from their mistakes." We shall see... And I shall hope...
In other news, I'm living back with my mom. I'm getting the rest of the stuff from Adam's tomorrow. We talked about it tonight and I did realize that I needed to not be there right now and he was glad I realized. Hah. For the time that I was there, it was fun and I will miss the bedtime CD we listened to while falling asleep. :)
One last thing: If there is something that I NEED to know and everyone else seems to know about it besides me...then TELL ME!!! I'll appreciate the truth rather then finding out from someone else later on and being extremely pissed and hurt! I'm trusting my friends and my boyfriend to tell me the HONEST TRUTH!
I hope everyone knows how much I truly do appreciate them for EVERYTHING.
<3<3<3<3<3
<3Danielle