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first day of smarch. couldn't be worse than february. I think last february was bad too, considering. and I know that february 2007 was horrible without trying to think of it.
I tried to go to bed at 11 when I was really tired, but I thought too much and couldn't sleep.
mostly about my life from the ages of 14-17.
and how I have no friends for this spring break! and how I was trying to be optimistic about everything that's going on, but I can't be without setting up disappointment for myself, so the best thing I can do is just pretend I'm all alone. do all the things I normally would do by myself. go to redscroll by myself, get china pan takeout for home, play paper mario and read 5 books in one week. drive to northampton to get bueno and see christine. see chelsea, too.
I would really like to see jared but there is seriously no point in me even asking if he wants to see me. if he does, he does. if not, oh well, maybe later. maybe this is a bad thing to make assumptions on, but if he still doesn't want to refollow me on twitter, he probably doesn't want to see me. oh well. I can wait for him.
it's easier to deal with if you just assume the worst is inevitable. it's always a nice surprise when your plane arrives safely.
I probably won't be able to go hiking cos a) there isn't snow anymore cos I wanted to go snow hiking and b) I can't go hiking by myself. oh well.
I have a lot of work this week. I need to take a day or two off from this and concentrate on that.
it's unfortunate that I'm almost preferring the stress and sleeplessness of this week to whatever is to come of next week!
oh, during break I am going to watch all four seasons of courage the cowardly dog that I downloaded, and probably watch all the first/good star wars movies again, I haven't seen them in a while. I've been seeing a lot of star
wars things on tumblr (and posting them to jareds formspring, but he probably doesn't know it's me) and it has made me want to watch them again so badly. i suppose I am looking forward to that.
I tried to go to bed at 11 when I was really tired, but I thought too much and couldn't sleep.
mostly about my life from the ages of 14-17.
and how I have no friends for this spring break! and how I was trying to be optimistic about everything that's going on, but I can't be without setting up disappointment for myself, so the best thing I can do is just pretend I'm all alone. do all the things I normally would do by myself. go to redscroll by myself, get china pan takeout for home, play paper mario and read 5 books in one week. drive to northampton to get bueno and see christine. see chelsea, too.
I would really like to see jared but there is seriously no point in me even asking if he wants to see me. if he does, he does. if not, oh well, maybe later. maybe this is a bad thing to make assumptions on, but if he still doesn't want to refollow me on twitter, he probably doesn't want to see me. oh well. I can wait for him.
it's easier to deal with if you just assume the worst is inevitable. it's always a nice surprise when your plane arrives safely.
I probably won't be able to go hiking cos a) there isn't snow anymore cos I wanted to go snow hiking and b) I can't go hiking by myself. oh well.
I have a lot of work this week. I need to take a day or two off from this and concentrate on that.
it's unfortunate that I'm almost preferring the stress and sleeplessness of this week to whatever is to come of next week!
oh, during break I am going to watch all four seasons of courage the cowardly dog that I downloaded, and probably watch all the first/good star wars movies again, I haven't seen them in a while. I've been seeing a lot of star
wars things on tumblr (and posting them to jareds formspring, but he probably doesn't know it's me) and it has made me want to watch them again so badly. i suppose I am looking forward to that.