Hoody Hoo 'Fackoo!

[instantxxdeath]

Alright so it's two thirty in the morning and I gotta get up in five and a half hours for this motherfuckin ER OBSERVATION that snuck up on me. I wish there was a way out of it.... I completely forgot. Hours and hours of fun standing around in a flaming hot hospital knee deep in bodies and blood. So why am I not in bed you ask? Because I don't feel like it, and maybe I got some shit to say. How bout that bitch? Why don't you sit the fuck down and listen for a minute homie, damn. Anyways I'm just bored and not tired so I figured I'd just waste away online for a little while. I was looking at Ember's journal thing. Ember if you ever reading this, I gotta tell you I feel sorry for you. You live in a world where there's so much unwarranted drama. But hey, at least you got motherfuckers fighting over you. Shit if I had bitches ready to stab each other and start gang wars over my piece of ass, I'd be livin' it up. But for real, it seems immature... It's just bad karma. No wonder you've never been happy. It's a damn shame. You put up with a lot of shit. We all play at least a little role in some of the shit that's handed to us, but I don't think you ask for that much shit. Not like you gonna ever read this shit, but what the fuck, why not write it anyways, eh? I have a feeling however, that if given the choice to either be happy or have happen to you what happens to you, you'd choose your present life over happiness. Sound crazy? I think not. I think that happiness would be too boring for you. The moment you get happy you're no longer content. Because no matter how good it is, it's stale. It's stagnant. Why float in a pond of solitude and serenity when white water rafting can be so much more damn fun? Does this sound familiar to any of you other kids out there? Why live a nice life in hamburg when I can steal my grampas car and drive down to florida after just getting back from california and just constantly living a life of dodging cops? It's much more fun, that's why. I know the type. It fits you. After all, it really doesn't take shit to be happy. Just a little bit of discipline and effort, if that. Unless your idea of happiness is being unhappy. There's plenty of people out there like that. And believe it or not, they're not all suicidal. Some are perfectly normal people... I forget where I was going with that. I think that's what puts a barrier between me and a lot of people. I'm too simple. It doesn't take a lot for me to have a good time. I don't have to go deep soul searching and drama seeking in order to feel alive. I don't need to (like the fuckin squirrel said) justify my existence through the existence of another. I'm good being alone, watching. I'm wierd, different. And I'm fine with that. I feel I belong when I'm alone. I'm in a huge group and that's where I feel weird. Not at home. Just very simple. Simple things make me happy. I digress. Back to the point, if I were you Ember, I think I'd just say fuck y'all. That shit is just not for me. Go fight one another, but don't expect me to be stupid enough to fall for the winner. So for having the patience, energy, gumption, umph, motivation, whatever the fuck you got that keeps you going and putting up with all that shit, I commend you. Greatly. Hummina Hummina jeebey deebey gah' bless. You being the "deepest person I'll know" has to mean a few things. Foremost of which being, you don't know yourself. "Deep" people think too much, they can't see the forest for the trees. They see things from all angles which throws into account all sorts of variables and shit. You look at yourself the same way. You haven't figured yourself out yet. Maybe you will one day, maybe you won't. Who knows, but if you do, you might find yourself a little more set... I'm just rambling, maybe I am tired. It ain't any business of mine what happens in your life, I just saw it and it started me thinking. Sorry bout that. Time passer. Hope you don't mind too much.

As for everybody, always remember to fugaff!!