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I was never good at saying "thank you" "i'm sorry" or "i love you." Ever. It always feels so forced. Something I'm just obligated to say. Well ok so I shouldn't say it always feels that way, because it doesn't. Just sometimes. You're forever being made to say shit when you're a kid. How many times have you heard a parent say "Now say thank you..!" And the kid in that tune (you know the tune) robotically replies "thaaank youuu" And little kids are always expected to get kissed and hugged and shit. I didn't like that either as a kid. Fucking aunts all run up on you and snatch you and demand kisses and stuff. I remember this one time (maybe cathie remembers it too) That this girl wanted a kiss and I wouldn't let her have it. I mean she was literally chasing me around and shit, thinking it was a fucking game. Like I'm gonna play hard to get when I'm four... Anyways she ends up snatching me up, and going in for the kill. Well i fuckin slapped her. WHAP! and she let me go. I forget who it was so many years ago, but I remember the feeling. Being forced to do some shit. Maybe that's one of the reasons I'm so brutally honest sometimes, or such an asshole. Cuz I no longer let anybody force me into doing or saying some shit I don't want to say, just because it's expected. Fuck you. I'm right, take my two cents the way I give it or leave me the fuck alone cuz I probably don't need you anyway. You're not gonna make me abide by you euphamisms (like that one, lauren? how i slid that one in there all O.G. like?) for the sake of not hurting someone's feelings. No i'm not sorry bitch. I did it on purpose. No I'm not going to thank you for something that was supposed to be done in the first place. And no, I don't feel like saying I love you. Yes, that dress does make you look fat. How am I? Motherfuckin dandy bitch. Not that you really care. Go take a slimfast and call me in the morning.