Through with some stuff. VENTING ABOUT BRIAN
Ok, so I decided that I'm through with some stuff. I'm through with putting effort into things that aren't meant to happen. In example..BRIAN! Ugh, I fucking hate him right now. He keeps giving me the same old lame excuse about how he's busy with his play and how he works all the time and how he doesn't have enough money to have a car of his own right now. Ok, that's understandable, right? Yea, sure. Ok, what I don't get is how I, Audra Adolph, can manage to call him every night and talk to him for atleast an hour each time when I have a play of my own to be in, a job where I work about 20 hour weeks, and on top of that, be the fucking president of every major organization at the school. Is he ever home though when I call to just see if he's alive? NO, NEVER! He's always gone. And yea, I can't blame the kid for having a life, but still...it frustrates me because he tells me to call him. He wants me to be with him. He needs me...blah de blah de freaking doo. I'm sick of being thrown around. I could totally be with any guy that I wanted right now...if there were any. Anyways, it just bothers me that I try so hard and for what? NOTHING. He doesn't even freakin' e-mail me. That's not asking for much, is it? I haven't talked to the kid in like, well, let's see, oh, ok. I got an e-mail from him about 2 weeks ago. Wow. Whoopdee freaking doo. So, if he uh wants to be like this, I totally can too. Okay, I am going to start dating guys on a more monogamous note, which I know I can't do, but I'm going to try. I think I will start with...