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So, now I have something to say about the Shades of Gray situation. I think that it's bullshit that people have a lot of things to say without knowing truths before spitting them out. When I "committed" to working on Shades of Gray I was told that this wouldn't interfere with anything else that was going on next semester, that was lie #1. Then once rehearsals started we we told that we wouldn't have to be at every single rehearsal for the entire summer, lie #2. Then when rehearsals were going really badly we were told that things were going to get better...and as of this moment that's lie #3. This experience has been nothing so far except an aggravation to me and if wanting to see if there's something better out there for me makes me a shitty person and you hope I fall on my face then fine, I hope I do too, but don't any of you sit there and think that you're better because all of a sudden you had a change of heart, Fuck that hypocritical bullshit. EVERYONE that I have talked to (with the exception of Sam because she wasn't at any rehearsals) wanted to quit at one time or another because of the disorganization and bad writing in the script and regardless if it's "admitted" to or not, sudden changes of heart don't make you any better than those of us that think we could be doing something more productive with our time, like working so that I can pay rent. In fact the sudden self righteousness is rather irritating considering all of the bashing that was done about the show in my presence. Maybe those of you who chose not to be at the meeting on Tuesday and have negative things to say about those of us that were and were honest about our feelings towards this whole experience should maybe take a step back from passing judgments on others and examine their own choices with regards to the show and life for that matter. You weren't there and you don't know what went on except through second hand stories. This show means nothing to me because I haven't been given a reason for it to mean something to me, being guilted into staying in it certainly doesn't make me want to do it anymore and being talked to like I'm 11 by someone who hasn't even been around CCSU long enough to know that Torpe Theatre is not spelled with an "H" doesn't make me want to stay either. If this play means something fine, what is it? Maybe the significance of the play and its meaning could have been discussed at one of the "rehearsals". Maybe we could've done some research into some of the problems people face today with "coming out" and the troubles that they later encounter. But we didn't, and fuck me I guess for needing to know that what I'm doing means something because right now I DON'T believe in this. Fuck me for wanting to try to make myself better. NO ONE said that they were just in Shades to see if they could get into Angels and then quitting, maybe if you were at the meeting you would've know exactly was was said instead of spitting it out third hand.
That's all I have to say about that.
I like reading Harry Potter although starting from the 6th book was probably not the best idea ever. I'll finish reading it though and then start from the beginning. I'm a nerd.
Big shout-outs to my boy Terry keepin' it real in '05. You know how we do. Peace. I'm out.
That's all I have to say about that.
I like reading Harry Potter although starting from the 6th book was probably not the best idea ever. I'll finish reading it though and then start from the beginning. I'm a nerd.
Big shout-outs to my boy Terry keepin' it real in '05. You know how we do. Peace. I'm out.