Welcome Back..Old Self.
I've started coming around, back to normal that is.. or what is now my new normal.
In a few short months, my life has taken dramatic changes, the twists and turns of life that make everything alright in the end, no matter how dramatic they might seem. It might take awhile to catch up, but, slowly, everything happens for a true purpose. I've learned to believe that, because now. I know it's true.
I love nursing, and my oldies but goodies. But, I could never do that forever.
I love cos. Something, I never would of thought in a million years that i'd be good at--newsflash. I am. Really good. I love it. There are many days I don't understand how I got there, but I know, i'm ment to be there. I've decided i'm going to work in the salon industry for a few years, but, then i'm going to get my instructors license. To teach cosmetology. I've always wanted to teach. and of course with that I don't have to loose my 52 darling grandparents; i'll be at Bellamy for a long time.
Anyways, my new normal is somewhat different than before. I'll work during the week a few days, Thursday nights I go up to Manchester with some empire girls to one of the clubs and dance my little heart out until 12:30a or so. Roll into bed at 2am and up at 7:30a. for class on friday. I still do the usual gym once a month, can't over exert myself with that. I also play soccer on a team on my free Sunday nights && enjoy a nice car ride to wherever it takes me on a nightly basis.
I don't worry about time. 3, 3:15. it's all the same, It doesn't matter as much anymore. The night flows well whatever time it is, no need to worry over things that don't matter.
I'm slowly breaking from my box. Gathering up the confidence little by little, I'm a stronger person now than I ever was. Honestly. I am. Brittany took me from pieces and created a whole new me. And i'm not complaining, i'm much better off this way, i'm happy.
The day I walked into empire and scarah goes " ellen, it's good to finally see a smile, thats been gone for awhile".. I didn't know what to say, but I agree with her, it's good to have it back, it's good to be back.
I got new adventures coming ahead of me, a whole new life waiting to unfold, and i'm slowly getting ready for it, little by little && i'm ready for it to happen.
In a few short months, my life has taken dramatic changes, the twists and turns of life that make everything alright in the end, no matter how dramatic they might seem. It might take awhile to catch up, but, slowly, everything happens for a true purpose. I've learned to believe that, because now. I know it's true.
I love nursing, and my oldies but goodies. But, I could never do that forever.
I love cos. Something, I never would of thought in a million years that i'd be good at--newsflash. I am. Really good. I love it. There are many days I don't understand how I got there, but I know, i'm ment to be there. I've decided i'm going to work in the salon industry for a few years, but, then i'm going to get my instructors license. To teach cosmetology. I've always wanted to teach. and of course with that I don't have to loose my 52 darling grandparents; i'll be at Bellamy for a long time.
Anyways, my new normal is somewhat different than before. I'll work during the week a few days, Thursday nights I go up to Manchester with some empire girls to one of the clubs and dance my little heart out until 12:30a or so. Roll into bed at 2am and up at 7:30a. for class on friday. I still do the usual gym once a month, can't over exert myself with that. I also play soccer on a team on my free Sunday nights && enjoy a nice car ride to wherever it takes me on a nightly basis.
I don't worry about time. 3, 3:15. it's all the same, It doesn't matter as much anymore. The night flows well whatever time it is, no need to worry over things that don't matter.
I'm slowly breaking from my box. Gathering up the confidence little by little, I'm a stronger person now than I ever was. Honestly. I am. Brittany took me from pieces and created a whole new me. And i'm not complaining, i'm much better off this way, i'm happy.
The day I walked into empire and scarah goes " ellen, it's good to finally see a smile, thats been gone for awhile".. I didn't know what to say, but I agree with her, it's good to have it back, it's good to be back.
I got new adventures coming ahead of me, a whole new life waiting to unfold, and i'm slowly getting ready for it, little by little && i'm ready for it to happen.