Andrews sweat was all over me that night...
Andrew Colins is amazing. Hes in the band called At All Cost, I talked with him at equaleyez "Tonight".He was amazing, he screamed, and shouted, sung, and hung from the rafters. At the end of the performance he gave me a huge old hug and we talked about his band. This guy was amazing...he listens to "dance" but plays hardcore. His bands been around for 3 years, but the setup itself has just been around for a couple of months. He mixes what he listens to "dance" and what he plays "hardcore". All in all a unique sound and experience, well worth while. He has opened my eyes to raging lyrics, screaming choruses, and the loudest fucking music ever. And...I LOVED IT! I also saw my friend Shane and what I think is Jordan's dad playing in Rotn Luck Club. I loved their energy. Shane even rememebered to say Hi to me. They were pretty damn good too. I danced in the pit. Yes, I actually hardcore danced in the fricken ragging pit. It was actually fun and I loved it too. Out of no where my body magically did a spin kick. Its so much energy, so much fun. I loved it. Andrew assured me that he would be coming back, and I assured him that so would I. At All Cost is an amazing band. My night at equaleyez was great.
Eric was there. He and I talked and he showed me compasion in all of my previous pain. When it came right down to it though, at his advances, I told him Im just not ready. I kind of liked being alone, I want to be alone. He was unable to accept that I wasnt ready so I pushed him away and told him that I needed my space and I told him No. Then he finaly understood that Im not ready. I dont need him to be happy. So I wasnt what he expected, but I dont care. He did give me some good advice though. I made alot of friends tonight, Zane and I finaly talked. Ive met alot of people and its all running through my mind, their names, their laughs, how they hardcore danced, and just random other things. Now With dirt in my mouth and my nose from the pit. Andrew's sweat on my shoulder, other people's sweat on my arms, the same dirt on my shoes, a combat record sticker right above my left boob, beer on my pants(that idiot), the smell of smoke lingering, and the thrill in my heart and soul gives me a smile tonight.
I know Lii came by tongiht because my mom told me. Unfortunatley, I was having the time of my life. I wish she couldve been there. Yeah, Lii and I need to talk. I dont know if she hates me. But I dont hate her. The message that I left for her either filled her heart with hope or anger to slap me. I wont know until tomorrow if she calls. What ever the case, I ment every word that I said.
Tonight, I had the time of my life.(with nothing bad happening) Life is great.
Eric was there. He and I talked and he showed me compasion in all of my previous pain. When it came right down to it though, at his advances, I told him Im just not ready. I kind of liked being alone, I want to be alone. He was unable to accept that I wasnt ready so I pushed him away and told him that I needed my space and I told him No. Then he finaly understood that Im not ready. I dont need him to be happy. So I wasnt what he expected, but I dont care. He did give me some good advice though. I made alot of friends tonight, Zane and I finaly talked. Ive met alot of people and its all running through my mind, their names, their laughs, how they hardcore danced, and just random other things. Now With dirt in my mouth and my nose from the pit. Andrew's sweat on my shoulder, other people's sweat on my arms, the same dirt on my shoes, a combat record sticker right above my left boob, beer on my pants(that idiot), the smell of smoke lingering, and the thrill in my heart and soul gives me a smile tonight.
I know Lii came by tongiht because my mom told me. Unfortunatley, I was having the time of my life. I wish she couldve been there. Yeah, Lii and I need to talk. I dont know if she hates me. But I dont hate her. The message that I left for her either filled her heart with hope or anger to slap me. I wont know until tomorrow if she calls. What ever the case, I ment every word that I said.
Tonight, I had the time of my life.(with nothing bad happening) Life is great.