I am proad of myself..go figure!
So yesterday I got no morning call and I WASNT upset when I got up and realized she didnt call. I was just like OH OKAY! and I went about my day. I emailed her at some point during the afternoonwhich isnt unusual, but she answered me immediatly which was odd..and it was a fun filled us being goofy and normal sort of thing so thats nice! Anyway it was back and forth and its good....and I sent a text last night (not unusaly either) just saying good night and I got no response although Im sure she was already sleeping so I was cool. And this morning no call and Im still okay, I mean I was like oh I have some stuff I wanted to tell her but I can tell her later!
Who am I....what have the aliens done with me??!?!?! Anyway its kinda of nice to not be anxiety filled and aggrivated becuase I am not getting what I want/need. I feel like I have sort of let some things go, I havent let go of her or how I feel but I have let go of some of issues revolving around control. I have come to grips with the face that in this situation in my life I have none...except when it comes to my reactions to things :)
I think this is a good thing...well for me anyway!
Now if it would just go back to being freaking spring and not in the high 30s and low 40s I would be a smiley bouncy chicky :)
Who am I....what have the aliens done with me??!?!?! Anyway its kinda of nice to not be anxiety filled and aggrivated becuase I am not getting what I want/need. I feel like I have sort of let some things go, I havent let go of her or how I feel but I have let go of some of issues revolving around control. I have come to grips with the face that in this situation in my life I have none...except when it comes to my reactions to things :)
I think this is a good thing...well for me anyway!
Now if it would just go back to being freaking spring and not in the high 30s and low 40s I would be a smiley bouncy chicky :)