Sunny days and Bloody job hunting
Argg. Back to the Job Hunt. I'm beginning to think I'm doomed to job hunting at least every two years for the rest of my life. Of my after-high-school-adult-life I think I've spent at least a third of my career time perfecting the career of the job hunt, which unfortunately doesn't get any easier, even when you're a professional like me. The source of this difficulty lies in the fact that I don't know what I want to pursue. My friend Woody recently told me that I need a goal. He's right, but what goal should that be? I've decided that I'm afraid of having goals, and yet my life is unfocused and drab (not to mention underpaid) without them... Why am I afraid of goals, you ask? I'm not sure really. I think it's because I'm afraid I'll pick the wrong one and I'll get bored... Weird, I know. I'm just afraid of commitment. Hmm
In other, more cheerful topics: Yay warm weather!! I'm so excited that it's summer. I got a sunburn yesterday and I rejoice in my suffering because I hold tight to the hope of a tan. :) Yesterday was wonderful! Besides the first five hours, (within which I diligently applied myself to curbing my frustration with cleaning up crap at work, literal crap)it was perfect. I got off work 15 minutes early and got to get to church by the time the message started. I got to sit near my friend Renee whom I really like and don't see very often. I was worried that the message might be aimed toward unbelievers more since it was all about the DaVinci Code, but it was amazing and God spoke directly to my heart. And though it's embarrassing, I cried three times throughout just because I was so honored to get to be there. I'm not sure we really realize what an intense priviledge it is to be counted a member of such a body. God is SO with us. I realized while I was sitting there that I'm starving for fellowship. Honestly, just sitting there among such great men and women while we all apply our hearts to God's instruction does something to minister to my heart that is irreplaceable. I can't get it anywhere else. It makes me sad that I can't be there more often, but I guess I'm definitely more in-tuned to the honor it is because I'm so starved for it.
So back to the point. I have to tell you all the other fine points of the day. It was so hot! I love hot weather, don't ask why, but I do. It was even more wonderful because I got to go swimming in the Poudre with Meggin. It was SO cold, but SO wonderful. I LOVE THE SUMMER!!! I can't tell you how much it lifts my spirits. The sun and the warmth and the water and the opportunity to be outside all the time... Yay. Ok, that's all for now.
In other, more cheerful topics: Yay warm weather!! I'm so excited that it's summer. I got a sunburn yesterday and I rejoice in my suffering because I hold tight to the hope of a tan. :) Yesterday was wonderful! Besides the first five hours, (within which I diligently applied myself to curbing my frustration with cleaning up crap at work, literal crap)it was perfect. I got off work 15 minutes early and got to get to church by the time the message started. I got to sit near my friend Renee whom I really like and don't see very often. I was worried that the message might be aimed toward unbelievers more since it was all about the DaVinci Code, but it was amazing and God spoke directly to my heart. And though it's embarrassing, I cried three times throughout just because I was so honored to get to be there. I'm not sure we really realize what an intense priviledge it is to be counted a member of such a body. God is SO with us. I realized while I was sitting there that I'm starving for fellowship. Honestly, just sitting there among such great men and women while we all apply our hearts to God's instruction does something to minister to my heart that is irreplaceable. I can't get it anywhere else. It makes me sad that I can't be there more often, but I guess I'm definitely more in-tuned to the honor it is because I'm so starved for it.
So back to the point. I have to tell you all the other fine points of the day. It was so hot! I love hot weather, don't ask why, but I do. It was even more wonderful because I got to go swimming in the Poudre with Meggin. It was SO cold, but SO wonderful. I LOVE THE SUMMER!!! I can't tell you how much it lifts my spirits. The sun and the warmth and the water and the opportunity to be outside all the time... Yay. Ok, that's all for now.