alive
so before the "incident" i had a pretty good idea as to what was going to happen in my life all the way until i had kids... we had planned this out, well actually now truth be told i had planned this out and she had just nodded her head. there is a problem with planning too far ahead, you are so busy looking to the future that you miss the present, and that is what happened. i had in my eye that this time in my life was just something to skate through until the next step came but this little twist in things has livened it all up a bit. i went from knowing what was going to happen, what she was going to say, when i was going to see her, who i was gonna be with and when, to living day to day. in a lot of ways this break up didn't end our relationship it jump started it, and with it, my life again. life gets boring when you know what's gonna happen tomorrow and the next day and 3 years down the line... you gotta live for today and wait to see what tomorrow brings. society does not support this stance, in that they want you to plan ahead look to the future and begin living it now, we can't do that because we miss out on so much (like moments with the most amazing woman on earth) so go out and "carpe diem," sieze the day folks and that is when you start living.