Video 08 → My Mistakes, Numbers 4,926 - 5,101

[insorrow]

[The video cuts in to show Ken frowning down into the camera, breathing a little too hard and too fast, and biting his lip. Clearly he is looking for something in one of the Dreamberry's menus, jabbing at the keys beneath the screen; just as clearly he triggered the video feed in the process. The image shakes: he's grasping the Dreamberry as firmly

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[unfearful]

... Ken?

[Bad feeling. Definitely a bad feeling about this.]

[text]

[insorrow]

[That makes two of us. Ken should be dead. He was dead. And--

[He can't remember why any more.]

hi ive lost my voice sorry. im gonna have 2 txt u

[Is this normal, he wants to ask. And, will it come back? But he doesn't. Here he is back from the dead and he doesn't even know what to say about it...

[So he just hits send.]

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[unfearful]

[... He can't talk.

....

Dominic hopes that his mind's just jumping to conclusions, but...]

How?

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[insorrow]

[Maybe this is just what happens when someone cuts your throat.]

i dont know

it mustve been like this ever since i got back

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[unfearful]

Since you got back?

[Don't let him be right don't let him be right-]

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[insorrow]

yeah i woke up here about half an hour back i guess. im all right

[... I just kind of wasn't expecting to wake up at all.]

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[unfearful]

['I'm all right.'

...]

Did you die?

[1/2]

[insorrow]

[2/2] [text]

[insorrow]

[It's so tempting not to answer that. To just toss the Dreamberry away and pretend he never saw it because what the Hell is he supposed to say? It's stupid, really: damn ridiculous. Ken knows he should be relieved, should be happy - he's alive, isn't he? - and all he feels is guilty and obscurely ashamed.

[But this is Dominic, and Ken can't do that to him. He deserves better.]

i think i mustve done.

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[unfearful]

[And there it is-the truth Dominic wasn't sure if he wanted to see, but it's there and he can't deny it.

Not that he would've, but it's painful.]

You don't remember clearly?

[Like Vincent, possibly.]

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[insorrow]

[And that's another thing that's troubling Ken. Shouldn't he remember? The time before--]

not really

he was a big guy i think

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[unfearful]

[There's a seething anger inside at whoever murdered his friend, but right now... Dominic is far more preoccupied with hoping that he's not at fault, somehow.

'A big guy'-not Diva or Road, then.]

Do you remember anything else about him?

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[insorrow]

i mean really big like 6 ft maybe more. & there was a lot of white & i think he mustve stabbed me

i guess i hit my head i can't remember so well

[Sorry.]

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[unfearful]

[White? Probably not Vincent, then.]

It's all right. I'm just glad you're still here.

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[insorrow]

yeah... same here

sorry for worrying you. but dont tell anyone please? i dont know what the others said while i was gone but theres some people id rather didn't know about this. if they dont know already

[People like Alice, people like whoever killed him. That guy - whoever he is - doesn't need to know he's not dead any more.]

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[unfearful]

All right, I won't. The police force will probably see this, though.