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I think I am still in a sad and depressed place that I can't seem to get out of for years, but I think I'm also doing a lot better since I've changed jobs. No one really thanks me now, but no one yells at me either, and I think being left alone is what I really want out of a job. Too bad the CEO and top people want to change that, but oh well, it was nice to be left alone while it lasted.
I think owning up that I may be forever alone also helps. I'm of course sad to disappoint my mom by not getting her any grandkids except through kidnapping or adoption, but hey, she wanted a doctor for a daughter, that's a pretty high expectation already, and she got it, and it would be unreasonable to expect that I also find a perfect husband and raise non-devil-spawn children.
I guess I'm not the type to ever be truly happy and content, but I am not so actively depressed anymore. I don't have a lot of friends and I don't expect to join clubs or meet any new friends through other venues, but the friends I have who are still hanging around are the best of humanity, and I am blessed to know such great people. I am content with what I'm doing with my art, although of course, I hope to improve each time. And last but not least, my bed is very comfortable. And I have a lot of videogames. What more can a girl want? The world? Hahahahah...
I think owning up that I may be forever alone also helps. I'm of course sad to disappoint my mom by not getting her any grandkids except through kidnapping or adoption, but hey, she wanted a doctor for a daughter, that's a pretty high expectation already, and she got it, and it would be unreasonable to expect that I also find a perfect husband and raise non-devil-spawn children.
I guess I'm not the type to ever be truly happy and content, but I am not so actively depressed anymore. I don't have a lot of friends and I don't expect to join clubs or meet any new friends through other venues, but the friends I have who are still hanging around are the best of humanity, and I am blessed to know such great people. I am content with what I'm doing with my art, although of course, I hope to improve each time. And last but not least, my bed is very comfortable. And I have a lot of videogames. What more can a girl want? The world? Hahahahah...