Don't you know that you're toxic?
One concept I read about recently is the idea of a toxic friend, or in the workplace, a toxic associate. If you've ever hung out with someone you consider a friend, but then realize afterwards that you almost always had a worse time being with them than when you were by yourself because of their attitude, then you have had a toxic friend. A toxic friend is someone who drags you down, always complains, gets you into fights you didn't want to participate in, borrows money from you and never pays you back, someone you dread inviting to your wedding and you wish you could seat them at their own table far away from everyone else. In other words, an aquadouche.
I always have considered myself a decent friend, a lumpy type that doesn't do much perhaps, but when I read statements of how a toxic friend acts, I thought, "Well, damn, that's how I always act, that's my personality right there." It's a part of who I am. But just how an artist can't really say "that's just my style!" to criticisms of their knowledge of shading and anatomy and composition, I also can't say "that's just my personality!" to excuse me being an unpleasant person. An artist can improve their skill if they tried, so a person could, to some extent, improve their personality.
Of course I am stubborn and want to remain true to myself because I am comfortable with what I've made of my life and if other people don't like me then they have bad taste and won't be getting any of my fortune in my will after I die, but at the same time, I don't want to be a really super unpleasant person that others don't want to associate with, that's just plain uncool and not classy at all.
Every year I resolve to be less of a Debbie Downer, and this year, I resolve to be less toxic as well. I don't think I am really getting there, the responsibilities of adulthood are a heavy burden to bear, but I know my weaknesses now, and I can avoid them better with just a little more effort. I don't want to be fake, I don't want to be a paper gangster, but I think I can try to be a little more classy about being an aquadouche.
Now for some art. I've been doodling at j-tegaki somewhat, but my laptop and tablet do not cooperate, and it is hard to draw smooth curved lines on any java applet. Opencanvas and Photoshop 7.0 are the only programs that still jive with the technology I have. And no, I'm not making a lame excuse for bad art haha, I just really don't know how to fix my computer settings.
So yeah, I can uhh, draw better than this.
(Not really.)
In other news, we had a bad review at work, although our store wasn't that much worse than others, we just can't seem to get out of our rut, no matter how hard everyone tries.
I went on a shopping spree for makeup and shoes (lol) in between buying gifts for my mother's birthday and eating amazing food with high price tags because I don't need my nice big tax refund that much. I got a few more home improvement things done, and bought some more books, currently trying to read Battle Royale. Still want to get a few more crafts and projects started or finished, especially one for a bride to be of my acquaintance, although Pottermore is providing a decent distraction from that, too.
Anyway, that's my boring life. What's up with everyone else? Surely you all have much more exciting stories to tell.
I always have considered myself a decent friend, a lumpy type that doesn't do much perhaps, but when I read statements of how a toxic friend acts, I thought, "Well, damn, that's how I always act, that's my personality right there." It's a part of who I am. But just how an artist can't really say "that's just my style!" to criticisms of their knowledge of shading and anatomy and composition, I also can't say "that's just my personality!" to excuse me being an unpleasant person. An artist can improve their skill if they tried, so a person could, to some extent, improve their personality.
Of course I am stubborn and want to remain true to myself because I am comfortable with what I've made of my life and if other people don't like me then they have bad taste and won't be getting any of my fortune in my will after I die, but at the same time, I don't want to be a really super unpleasant person that others don't want to associate with, that's just plain uncool and not classy at all.
Every year I resolve to be less of a Debbie Downer, and this year, I resolve to be less toxic as well. I don't think I am really getting there, the responsibilities of adulthood are a heavy burden to bear, but I know my weaknesses now, and I can avoid them better with just a little more effort. I don't want to be fake, I don't want to be a paper gangster, but I think I can try to be a little more classy about being an aquadouche.
Now for some art. I've been doodling at j-tegaki somewhat, but my laptop and tablet do not cooperate, and it is hard to draw smooth curved lines on any java applet. Opencanvas and Photoshop 7.0 are the only programs that still jive with the technology I have. And no, I'm not making a lame excuse for bad art haha, I just really don't know how to fix my computer settings.
So yeah, I can uhh, draw better than this.
(Not really.)
In other news, we had a bad review at work, although our store wasn't that much worse than others, we just can't seem to get out of our rut, no matter how hard everyone tries.
I went on a shopping spree for makeup and shoes (lol) in between buying gifts for my mother's birthday and eating amazing food with high price tags because I don't need my nice big tax refund that much. I got a few more home improvement things done, and bought some more books, currently trying to read Battle Royale. Still want to get a few more crafts and projects started or finished, especially one for a bride to be of my acquaintance, although Pottermore is providing a decent distraction from that, too.
Anyway, that's my boring life. What's up with everyone else? Surely you all have much more exciting stories to tell.