anyone can take these same white pills
I hate it when people without any real science background think they know more about science and medicine than scientists and doctors. Wait, no, I don't hate it, I think it's funny.
Science and medicine are about trying to finding answers to complicated questions by asking more questions. There are hardly any answers in science, only theories and postulations and guesses and shots in the dark. Why should science be held to a different level of accountability than that of other human interests? It's still a human construct, like religion and love and art, and it is bound by the limits of our pathetic understanding of the world around us. (You can argue that religion is not a human construct, okay.) I am not saying bad medicine should be excused, I myself never go to the doctor even though I should, mostly because it's practically in my job description as a poor young minority. Still, I think that some people are a little selfish when some aspect of science or medicine doesn't help them and yet they don't consider how it helps so many others in desperate need of it. The world doesn't revolve around one person. Best example of this: some people say that HIV doesn't cause AIDs and that it's a conspiracy by the government? What do you possibly say to that? I have no idea. (Because if it is a conspiracy to kill Americans, I would have to say it's a very good conspiracy and I wish the government had more success in its other projects.)
which is the least that I've weighed in several years. But I'm still fat and cellulitey, way to go!!! I have been exercising and taking vitamins and eating breakfast and cooking healthy meals made of vegetables and not butter, but it has only served to make me more tired, break out more often, and feel even more cranky and irritable. Obviously I am the kind of girl who does best sitting on her fat ass all day, eating cookies and chips and fried chicken.
I don't condone anorexia, ALTHOUGH I know I sound like I do, but I feel somewhat sorry for the girls/guys who have eating disorders. I know what they're feeling, I empathize. My obsession with being thin(ner) keeps my mind off the fact that I no longer have any control of my life... Even if I'm not as smart or talented or pretty or charming as other girls, even if things aren't going the way I plan, I feel better knowing that I am at least thin, which 60% of America is not even close to being. That's not a good excuse or a positive feeling at all, but I'm so full of self-hatred, it keeps me going and I think that's the best I can ever hope for.
Of course, the fact that my father died of a heart attack at the age of 45 and my mother has high blood pressure and my brother is a fat little piggy motivates me to try to stay thin. I mean... yeah...
Physiology test tomorrow, how can someone without a heart possibly learn anything about the heart?
MP3s of the week:
Hooverphonic - Eden
Sarah Brightman did a version of this song. I always think of Final Fantasy 7 when I hear this song, nice and creepy, monks and weird lyrics, good times.
Fleming and John - Ugly Girl
The most hilarious ex-girlfriend song ever. I wish I could be this funny and bitter. I am just bitter. Old and bitter.
David Baker and Shawn McPherson - Devils Never Cry
I love Catholic school boys. This song is my favorite videogame song ever, it's the best of everything that makes songs sexy and cool.
Nightwish - Phantom of the Opera
I also love melodramatic metal-musical music. I wish I lived in Finland so that I could listen to awesome death-metal everyday.
Delerium - Daylight
I bet I uploaded this before, but I love mushy emo trance about forbidden love. One of my favorites of all time.
Chara- Tadd
Cute Japanese pop! I love her voice even though it's so scratchy, she's got a very fun upbeat style.
Science and medicine are about trying to finding answers to complicated questions by asking more questions. There are hardly any answers in science, only theories and postulations and guesses and shots in the dark. Why should science be held to a different level of accountability than that of other human interests? It's still a human construct, like religion and love and art, and it is bound by the limits of our pathetic understanding of the world around us. (You can argue that religion is not a human construct, okay.) I am not saying bad medicine should be excused, I myself never go to the doctor even though I should, mostly because it's practically in my job description as a poor young minority. Still, I think that some people are a little selfish when some aspect of science or medicine doesn't help them and yet they don't consider how it helps so many others in desperate need of it. The world doesn't revolve around one person. Best example of this: some people say that HIV doesn't cause AIDs and that it's a conspiracy by the government? What do you possibly say to that? I have no idea. (Because if it is a conspiracy to kill Americans, I would have to say it's a very good conspiracy and I wish the government had more success in its other projects.)
which is the least that I've weighed in several years. But I'm still fat and cellulitey, way to go!!! I have been exercising and taking vitamins and eating breakfast and cooking healthy meals made of vegetables and not butter, but it has only served to make me more tired, break out more often, and feel even more cranky and irritable. Obviously I am the kind of girl who does best sitting on her fat ass all day, eating cookies and chips and fried chicken.
I don't condone anorexia, ALTHOUGH I know I sound like I do, but I feel somewhat sorry for the girls/guys who have eating disorders. I know what they're feeling, I empathize. My obsession with being thin(ner) keeps my mind off the fact that I no longer have any control of my life... Even if I'm not as smart or talented or pretty or charming as other girls, even if things aren't going the way I plan, I feel better knowing that I am at least thin, which 60% of America is not even close to being. That's not a good excuse or a positive feeling at all, but I'm so full of self-hatred, it keeps me going and I think that's the best I can ever hope for.
Of course, the fact that my father died of a heart attack at the age of 45 and my mother has high blood pressure and my brother is a fat little piggy motivates me to try to stay thin. I mean... yeah...
Physiology test tomorrow, how can someone without a heart possibly learn anything about the heart?
MP3s of the week:
Hooverphonic - Eden
Sarah Brightman did a version of this song. I always think of Final Fantasy 7 when I hear this song, nice and creepy, monks and weird lyrics, good times.
Fleming and John - Ugly Girl
The most hilarious ex-girlfriend song ever. I wish I could be this funny and bitter. I am just bitter. Old and bitter.
David Baker and Shawn McPherson - Devils Never Cry
I love Catholic school boys. This song is my favorite videogame song ever, it's the best of everything that makes songs sexy and cool.
Nightwish - Phantom of the Opera
I also love melodramatic metal-musical music. I wish I lived in Finland so that I could listen to awesome death-metal everyday.
Delerium - Daylight
I bet I uploaded this before, but I love mushy emo trance about forbidden love. One of my favorites of all time.
Chara- Tadd
Cute Japanese pop! I love her voice even though it's so scratchy, she's got a very fun upbeat style.