Why I am over protective........
So, here goes nothing....This is a very personal subject so if you don't want to know don't read it.....
When I was 6 years old my parents split..I went with my mom to my grandmother's house. My mom's sisters and her mom decided she needed to go out for a drink. I remember really not wanting her to go, but she did. She left me with my Aunt Tanya and my uncle Barry. Tanya fell asleep and my uncle raped me.....
The next day we were going roller skating and while we were standing in line my mom asked me what was wrong...And I told her.... We left the rink and went back to my grandma's house. My dad got there in like 2 minutes and the whole family ended up fighting bacause my grandma didn't believe it. I went to the hospital and all I could think of was how I ruined eveyone's day-none of my cousins understood, so they were not happy we had to leave.. Then spending the rest of the day watching everyone I love cry just stuck in my head. Maybe that is the reason I hold everything in to this day. So anyways he was never prosecuted for this and it bacame the family's dark little secret only to be discussed when people wanted to know how I was or tell me what they thought, only in private.
Today I found out that this sick man continued this bullshit with his own 7yr. old daughter, who finally came forward 3 months ago and claims it has been going on her whole life...That is how old Samantha is!!! I wish that someone would have pressed charges years ago.... This is the first time in my life I have regretted doing or not doing something...I am so sorry for that little girl. It's so great now that schools are getting so much more involved in the home now, because she came out to her counselor. I wish there was something I could do now. My mom has always said that after that happened to me I never truly smiled again. I don't know if that's true, but I pray that girl goes on to have the best life as far away from him as possible. And I guess, for now, that is all I can do.
Oh and my wonderful grandmother still don't believe it, which is the exact reason I have seen her 1 time in 20 years. Some day I will have a talk with that women, maybe someday soon..........