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Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Currently Playing
Fires of Life
By Cool Hand Luke
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i want this year to be through.
i want solitude.
i want away from here.
i want to see His plan
i want to know how to proceed.
i want clarification.
i want...
i want...
i want...
such tragic thinking.
i'm tired. emotional. and my mind is not thinking straight.
my mind has a tendancy to over think in such conditions.
note to self: never listen to brandtson when in this mood.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
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This Desert Life
By Counting Crows
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have you ever felt like life has just been a whirlwind... uncontrolable and moving faster then you could ever imagine?
that would sum up my life the best. a whirlwind.
it all started from a conversation with miller nearly (or maybe a little bit more than) a month ago. the spark for a meaningful christian walk ignited me. now, to be honest, i'm still a pretty pathetic christain. but there has been a great, great change in my outlook. i can only hope that i continually be drawn to His image. from there, it seems so much has changed. sadly, some for the worse (in human persepective) and some for the better.
the greatest of these changes are the dynamics between heather and me. i know, you must be saying: 'what?'. but yes. it's true. i would sadly have to say that we no longer share the friendship we once held. i have lost one of my best friends. our lives have taken different paths. i love her very much. but we must both follow the course set before us. the other would be with my close living mate. i feel like our paths are those of ghosts... weaving in and out... but never crossing. we sit next to each other for hours and never talk. and when we do, it is short, meaningless small talk. my heart is sad. but again, i see our lives taking different paths.
yet in replacement, God has brought so much into my life. the greatest of which i do not wish to deliver the details upon an internet journal. just pray that all will be done in accordance with His will.
well, i need to hit dinner before theater.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
because He lives...
i can face tomorrow!
because He lives...
all fear is gone!
because i know...
He holds the future.
and life...
is worth the living
just bececause He lives.