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hello everyone...life sucks...it really does...people are required to do so much crap that they don't really want to over the course of their existence and 9 out of 10 people are never even really happy...what does that say about life? it says that it is a bleak meaningless canvas that most people never get to paint the picture they want on...i mean i am learning about intercultural communication that in five or ten years will be meaningless because i won't be using it in everyday life beyond the point that i am using it now so what is the point...sure my knowledge base will be larger and i'll have some resume filler but will it really amount to me being happy...i think what would make me happy is if i could really start another band...i had one and then i was torn away from it because of my dad's job...i don't want to be complaining but that really sucks...the feeling that you have no control over your own life is a terrible one...my whole life has been one shitty rollercoaster ride that i have had no control over until recently and even now i don't really have any control over it because i cannot do the things i like when i would like to do them because of the fact that to get anywhere in this godforsaken area we call fairfax you need a car to have the autonomy to do so at will...without a car i am at the mercy of those that may drive me or at the mercy of public transportation...and i'll tell you that public modes of transportation suck ass and always will...you have to adhere to a strict schedule when relying on the bus or pay an outrageous amount of money to take a cab or find a way to the metro or vre and again follow a strict schedule to do anything that you want...public transportation really does not fit in with my schedule at all...i know others feel the same way i do and so i say: move to the city...sure the crime rate may be higher as well as living costs in some senses and areas but it is worth it to have the autonomy to walk where and when you like and yes i will say it, public transportation is acceptable within a city because the majority of people make use of it there for the fact that it is more convenient (who would have thought) as well as cheaper...
other than that life is just dandy...i am almost done with my papers and work is ok but for the fact that it has been terribly slow as of late...i hope it will pick up soon and i am still pestering jim about letting me bartend...in restaurants that is where the money is at and it is a very easy fun job to do...lis has been given the job of bartending at villa bella and though i am jealous of that i am happy for her...it is good money and is easier than she thinks...she just needs to learn to mix, pour, open and serve drinks...all easier done than said for the most part...it just takes practice or an awesome corkscrew, whatever the case may be...i just wish she would stop being mean right now and do all the things she says she is going to do...you know all of the things i am talkign about you little moocow...moocow...i am just sad because she thinks that i think i am better than everyone else which is completely untrue...i really think i am definitely not as good as most people at most things...i wish i was but i'm not and theres not a whole lot i can do at the moment to change that...so i'll just go on sucking at life, not that anyone cares...i'm just depressed right now because everything in my life simply sucks right now...
so i made up a word to describe films that are similar in nature to kevin smith films...smithesque...i like it and i think it will catch on...we just have to take it back and we can do that...i am working, albeit extremely slowly, on the idea i had for a movie about a yardsale...i will not divulge anymore information that that on the subject though because i am fearful of someone who isn't as lazy as i am stealing the idea and actually going forward with it...i really would like to make it and it would be fun even if i made it using my own means...it wouldn't require much work and i already have access to locations as well as people i'm sure would be willing to participate in making it...maybe i should do it...but not until after i finish this semester of school...i really hate writing papers i don't care about...there written halfway decently and get me grades but for the most part aren't very good...i have decided i am not a good writer...but we already went over the fact that i am not very good at anything so it doesn't much matter...the only well written material i have is stuff that i actually give a rat's ass about...and there isn't much of that that i have actually completed...so anyways i am off to fail my psychology exam...the material is interesting but i haven't had much time to study due to the zillion papers i have to write for my other two classes...later
other than that life is just dandy...i am almost done with my papers and work is ok but for the fact that it has been terribly slow as of late...i hope it will pick up soon and i am still pestering jim about letting me bartend...in restaurants that is where the money is at and it is a very easy fun job to do...lis has been given the job of bartending at villa bella and though i am jealous of that i am happy for her...it is good money and is easier than she thinks...she just needs to learn to mix, pour, open and serve drinks...all easier done than said for the most part...it just takes practice or an awesome corkscrew, whatever the case may be...i just wish she would stop being mean right now and do all the things she says she is going to do...you know all of the things i am talkign about you little moocow...moocow...i am just sad because she thinks that i think i am better than everyone else which is completely untrue...i really think i am definitely not as good as most people at most things...i wish i was but i'm not and theres not a whole lot i can do at the moment to change that...so i'll just go on sucking at life, not that anyone cares...i'm just depressed right now because everything in my life simply sucks right now...
so i made up a word to describe films that are similar in nature to kevin smith films...smithesque...i like it and i think it will catch on...we just have to take it back and we can do that...i am working, albeit extremely slowly, on the idea i had for a movie about a yardsale...i will not divulge anymore information that that on the subject though because i am fearful of someone who isn't as lazy as i am stealing the idea and actually going forward with it...i really would like to make it and it would be fun even if i made it using my own means...it wouldn't require much work and i already have access to locations as well as people i'm sure would be willing to participate in making it...maybe i should do it...but not until after i finish this semester of school...i really hate writing papers i don't care about...there written halfway decently and get me grades but for the most part aren't very good...i have decided i am not a good writer...but we already went over the fact that i am not very good at anything so it doesn't much matter...the only well written material i have is stuff that i actually give a rat's ass about...and there isn't much of that that i have actually completed...so anyways i am off to fail my psychology exam...the material is interesting but i haven't had much time to study due to the zillion papers i have to write for my other two classes...later