immobility.
i feel like a hummingbird with amputated wings.
im used to darting from place to place in constant search of the nectar of life.
having fun... going on walks through the woods. going to places i've never been before.
meeting new people. doing new things. listening to new music. ya know, being a happy ramblin' rover & all that jazz...
now i just kinda sit and stare at a computer screen playing video games, doing nothing with myself.
thing'll get better. i get another bus pass soon.
but even with a bus pass i'm still trapped in this small cluster of 5 or so cities.
i wanna go back to big sur and follow that creek to see if i can find a spring, or maybe a waterfall. i wanna visit dana point & have shirly temples at The Jolly Roger, & then smoke cigarettes while listening to the constant chittering of the thousands of crabs clinging to the rocks below. i wanna go to Forest Falls and visit that huuuuuge waterfall i found with my old friends from jr high when we decided to say "fuck it" to the summer camp boundary rules and went on an adventure. i wanna stand underneath the highest tier of the fall butt naked just for the hell of it. feel how POWERFUL the elemental force of water is as the waterfall beats my bare back raw. I wanna sit on that fallen tree across the second level of the fall and just sit and enjoy the amazing panoramic view of the mountains. I wanna go to other states, like washington and seattle and maybe nevada and shoplift a pair of sunglasses from quick-e-marts in each state just for the memory. I wanna go run naked through a redwood forest waving flares and singing "Hey Diddle Diddle". I wanna go to the desert & climb a mesa just to watch the sun set on a different landscape from a different point of view. i wanna go backpacking across the swiss alps to buy a box of swiss chocolate & give it to the lonliest/saddest person i meet so I can tell them about how I braved this entire journey just to brighten their day and give them some tasty chocolate. & if they don't like chocolate i'll buy them something to make them feel special. I wanna go to south america and have a beer with a sloth. & then i wanna spend a week with a native tribe learning their customs and language. i wanna go to canada and visit quebec, just because. i wanna chase lemmings in alaska. i wanna hug a puffin in argentina.
but the state of california has decided that im not fit to drive.
fuck the DMV.
im used to darting from place to place in constant search of the nectar of life.
having fun... going on walks through the woods. going to places i've never been before.
meeting new people. doing new things. listening to new music. ya know, being a happy ramblin' rover & all that jazz...
now i just kinda sit and stare at a computer screen playing video games, doing nothing with myself.
thing'll get better. i get another bus pass soon.
but even with a bus pass i'm still trapped in this small cluster of 5 or so cities.
i wanna go back to big sur and follow that creek to see if i can find a spring, or maybe a waterfall. i wanna visit dana point & have shirly temples at The Jolly Roger, & then smoke cigarettes while listening to the constant chittering of the thousands of crabs clinging to the rocks below. i wanna go to Forest Falls and visit that huuuuuge waterfall i found with my old friends from jr high when we decided to say "fuck it" to the summer camp boundary rules and went on an adventure. i wanna stand underneath the highest tier of the fall butt naked just for the hell of it. feel how POWERFUL the elemental force of water is as the waterfall beats my bare back raw. I wanna sit on that fallen tree across the second level of the fall and just sit and enjoy the amazing panoramic view of the mountains. I wanna go to other states, like washington and seattle and maybe nevada and shoplift a pair of sunglasses from quick-e-marts in each state just for the memory. I wanna go run naked through a redwood forest waving flares and singing "Hey Diddle Diddle". I wanna go to the desert & climb a mesa just to watch the sun set on a different landscape from a different point of view. i wanna go backpacking across the swiss alps to buy a box of swiss chocolate & give it to the lonliest/saddest person i meet so I can tell them about how I braved this entire journey just to brighten their day and give them some tasty chocolate. & if they don't like chocolate i'll buy them something to make them feel special. I wanna go to south america and have a beer with a sloth. & then i wanna spend a week with a native tribe learning their customs and language. i wanna go to canada and visit quebec, just because. i wanna chase lemmings in alaska. i wanna hug a puffin in argentina.
but the state of california has decided that im not fit to drive.
fuck the DMV.