I hate you
That subject wasn't to anyone at all, I just can't ever think of a subject. I've been in tri cities since saturday, and I got back yesterday at about 2:00 am. I had some shit to take care of and never got around to it. I found some shit out that changed a lot about the way I look at a certain person. I'm still in shock and I can't believe it happened still but I'm letting it slide. I have no idea why I'm letting it slide because normally I would never do that. I guess that just goes to show how much I really do love her. I'm to the point where I can't even picture myself without her.
I realized something today. Everyone I have ever met has changed me in some way, whether it's a good change or bad, they change me one way or another. But right now I'm to the point that I can't be changed. No one can open my eyes to anything anymore, I think I see everything I used to claim to see. I used to say I was the most open minded person ever, but I wasn't. I was a fake, I was pretending to be accepting to everyone and not judge anyone. I think living on my own made me see a lot of stuff and think of a lot of stuff that I never used to. I no longer judge someone because they are 40 and still working at McDonald's, I don't judge people based on how they dress. I know I always used to say I didn't but I realized I really did, I always said shit about the way people dressed. I don't do that anymore, maybe that person is working at McDonald's because they really like their job, and people just dress the way they want and I get mad when people say shit about the way I dress so why did I do the same thing? I think overall I am a better person. One thing I will constantly make fun of, and I don't care what people say about it, popped collars. What the fuck is that all about? But that's the only thing I will say. I know people could say the same thing about me, like my studded vest or tight pants but I won't let it get to me and I hope those people won't let it get to them and I hope they won't take offense to it because I'm only saying something about their clothes, not who they are.
I realized something today. Everyone I have ever met has changed me in some way, whether it's a good change or bad, they change me one way or another. But right now I'm to the point that I can't be changed. No one can open my eyes to anything anymore, I think I see everything I used to claim to see. I used to say I was the most open minded person ever, but I wasn't. I was a fake, I was pretending to be accepting to everyone and not judge anyone. I think living on my own made me see a lot of stuff and think of a lot of stuff that I never used to. I no longer judge someone because they are 40 and still working at McDonald's, I don't judge people based on how they dress. I know I always used to say I didn't but I realized I really did, I always said shit about the way people dressed. I don't do that anymore, maybe that person is working at McDonald's because they really like their job, and people just dress the way they want and I get mad when people say shit about the way I dress so why did I do the same thing? I think overall I am a better person. One thing I will constantly make fun of, and I don't care what people say about it, popped collars. What the fuck is that all about? But that's the only thing I will say. I know people could say the same thing about me, like my studded vest or tight pants but I won't let it get to me and I hope those people won't let it get to them and I hope they won't take offense to it because I'm only saying something about their clothes, not who they are.