life
life comes at you fast.in ways you never expected. as soon as you think you know who you are, something will come and throw you a curveball you arent even prepared to catch. and sometimes this succeeds in knocking the breath right out of you, for days on end.
when all else fails, you are left at a crossroads. to determine who you really are. the person you used to be, or the person you have become. and this decision will truly shape the path that you take tomorrow. so what else is there for you do to, except to think and then to pray. and to hold on to hope. a hope that will keep you from despair, even in the darkest hour. maybe what you want isn't possible right now, maybe what you desire is not true to who you have become.
this doesnt mean that it will be easy to let go. in fact, it will be rather challenging. challenging to the point of questioning whether this new life you've worked so hard to accomplish is actually worth it. whether or not this is who you truly want to become. because, after all, there is no looking back once you decide. the self-deception ends here. perhaps the most terrifying part of this whole process is that you will be breaking more than just your own heart. the concept of hurting others and letting them down might just be the most paralyzing part of all.
or maybe its the fact that letting go means just that....letting go... no more control, no more manipulation, and no more power. the only thing left to do once you let go is to trust. which in itself, is near impossible for one as broken as yourself. so maybe before you can trust, you need to make a giant leap of faith. you must gather up your energy, brace your feeble body and jump. jumping also means letting go. letting go of what you used to hold yourself up with and letting God do all the work. established trust because that is all that you have left.
now i can't say for certain what decision you will make. of course i know that it won't be easy. and i know what you should do. but the ball is in your court now. you must remember, you have two lives now, and the journey in this life will lead you on a direct path to the next. instant gratification is no longer a viable route. you know where it leads. you know what needs to be done. no one else can make the next move for you. you must stand up. stand alone, and stand strong. hold your head high and know that when you are the most broken,God is with you and shown through you the most. and one day, the pain will cease, and you will be home.
when all else fails, you are left at a crossroads. to determine who you really are. the person you used to be, or the person you have become. and this decision will truly shape the path that you take tomorrow. so what else is there for you do to, except to think and then to pray. and to hold on to hope. a hope that will keep you from despair, even in the darkest hour. maybe what you want isn't possible right now, maybe what you desire is not true to who you have become.
this doesnt mean that it will be easy to let go. in fact, it will be rather challenging. challenging to the point of questioning whether this new life you've worked so hard to accomplish is actually worth it. whether or not this is who you truly want to become. because, after all, there is no looking back once you decide. the self-deception ends here. perhaps the most terrifying part of this whole process is that you will be breaking more than just your own heart. the concept of hurting others and letting them down might just be the most paralyzing part of all.
or maybe its the fact that letting go means just that....letting go... no more control, no more manipulation, and no more power. the only thing left to do once you let go is to trust. which in itself, is near impossible for one as broken as yourself. so maybe before you can trust, you need to make a giant leap of faith. you must gather up your energy, brace your feeble body and jump. jumping also means letting go. letting go of what you used to hold yourself up with and letting God do all the work. established trust because that is all that you have left.
now i can't say for certain what decision you will make. of course i know that it won't be easy. and i know what you should do. but the ball is in your court now. you must remember, you have two lives now, and the journey in this life will lead you on a direct path to the next. instant gratification is no longer a viable route. you know where it leads. you know what needs to be done. no one else can make the next move for you. you must stand up. stand alone, and stand strong. hold your head high and know that when you are the most broken,God is with you and shown through you the most. and one day, the pain will cease, and you will be home.