Tears as solace.

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I finally let them out.
The tears.

Everything smacked right at my face.
I couldn't eat & I was so stressed I wanted to puke.
Everyone at work gave their support and I managed to give a weak smile.

I went to the toilet thrice to let myself out.
Reaching home, I broke down completely. I ordered Mac & I think the delivery guy was shocked at my red eyes.

Its a hell of a job and I am not exaggerating.
Following the 40 over cheques that was issued on Saturday, today wasn't spared either.

I don't know how long I will be able to take it.

I realised the 3 words that were the hardest to say aren't "I love you" but "I need you".
But to a man who doesn't have me in his world, all I can manage is "I will be okie". He didn't console further.
Am I so independent & strong in his eyes or that he thinks only he, is capable of feeling down?
I don't know about that.

I have a seminar with Deloitte tomorrow which I really feel like cancelling so that I can go back to finish up my work.

Things aren't going too well now.
I really hope this phase will pass sooner.