The Worst Day Ever
My life is rated NC-17.
Yesterday was Monday! What does that mean? Caleb got to go to Amsterdam for some drinks. I met up with Robbie and we had fun staring at Matt, the sexiest bartender. I got a little more than buzzed off my four martinis. Bad, bad Caleb. Thanks Robbie! It was great spending time with you. I still can't get over Matt bartending with his shirt off....YUM!
And, now we move on to today. "The Worst Day Ever" I went to the gym with David Smith this morning, because he wants to get his workout on, and I'm more than happy to help him with that. I love trying to get somebody to the gym. He was sleeping when I called him and I had to wake him up. He showed up right on time, and we did cardio today! Thursday we'll lift and do some cardio. I'll get him hardcore into it. lol. Then, I called my Sports Medicine doctor to see if he had the results from my echocardiogram back. He did. He asked me to come in after class so they could discuss the findings with me. I definitely knew it wasn't going to be good. I went to English and Algebra. We won't even talk about how long classes seemed while I was waiting to go to the doctor. I walked over there after class and got the results.
"Patient shows an abnormal echocardiogram. Possible bicuspid aortic valve. Shows signs of severe aortic insufficiency and an enlarged left ventricle."
Well, in English, that means I'm going to die. Well, not right now, but eventually. It means that I may possibly only have two leafleats in my valve to close instead of three. This creates a lot more turbulence while my valves try to open and close. It's like taking a garden hose that's turned on and putting your thumb in the way. The severe aortic insufficiency means that a good portion of the blood that is coming out of my aorta is leaking back into my heart. This is definitely a bad thing. It causes my heart to work a lot harder to try and push more of that blood out. That is what has caused the enlarged left ventricle. All of these elements together boil down to the fact that I don't have such a great heart. The doctor told me I could have a heart attack from it, but not quite yet. Things will have to worsen first. They've referred me to a cardiologist. So, soon, I'll go for that appointment and find out what the next course of action is going to be. I really don't get what's going on, and I'm not afraid to die. So, I'm just going to continue as normal until the cardiologist tells me otherwise. The Sports doctor kept asking me if I ever get dizzy, light-headed, or faint after exercise. I never have, so I'm guessing that's definitely a good sign. It means that my brain is getting just as much blood as it needs. I'm going to try to talk the cardiologist into letting me still be on the cheerleading squad. That's what is pissing me off the most...the fact that I have to give up cheerleading because of this shit!
Onto way better news. Bret is definitely the greatest guy I've ever had in my life. He made me cry this evening. He came over after I got home from the doctor. I hadn't officially told him what the doctor said. We sat down on the couch and he held me as I told him what happened. After I told him that I had to go to the cardiologist, he said that he's go with me if I wanted him there with me. That made me feel good until I realized he works during the day and that's when I'll have to go. I told him this, and instead of saying he was sorry, he turned to me and said, "I don't care, I'll use some vacation time for you so I can go with you." That, by far, has to be the most amazing thing a guy has done for me.
I'm so used to my parents not really caring about what goes on with me. I called my mum in NJ today and she acted like it was nothing that I have a serious heart condition. I know it hurt her, but she never shows it. How am I to know if she cares? Oh well. That's why I live in Arizona by myself. The way it was meant to be.
So, new obsession with Shania Twain's "Gonna Getcha Good." Definitely gets me having a great outcome about life. Instead of being insecure, I should just be confident in the person that I am and know I can get the person I want in my life. My favorite lines "I know I sound serious. Baby, I am. You're a fine piece of real estate, and I'm gonna get me some land." That's the shit right there!
Well, time to do some more German homework. I really should have just taken another language, because my German teacher sucks as a teacher. He's great with German, but bad as a professor. Er ist ein Dummkopf!
::UPDATE:: My cardiologist appointment is this Friday at 11 a.m.
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Martinis Imbibed:
Reese's Peanut Butter Cup Martini
Caramel Apple and Nuts Martini
French Vanilla Ice Milk Martini
Pink Lemonade Martini