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Well, about one hour 'till the big 2-0-0-6.
What a hoot.
I'm not really sure what I want to say about this year.
I don't want 2005 to end.
It was the best year of my life.
And probably the hardest.
I learned so much; I did so much.
I became so much more than I thought I ever would have.
I learned people; friends, family, aren't everything.
... while of course theyre great... I just don't need them to define who I am.
I learned strength. I learned perserverance. I learned humility.
I learned its not always going to be perfect.
I don't have to please everyone.
I don't have to be what the world wants of me. I don't have to be or do what my friends and family want of me.
I'm not perfect.
I never will be.
But you know what?: I'm me. and thats far more amazing than anything else in this world.
I learned getting older will still involve heartache, will still involve pain, and suffuring and let downs.
But its also going to be beautiful. Its going to be amazing, its going to be exactly what its supposed to be.
And I won't go through it on my own. I'll have my hope. I'll have my faith. I'll have my friends&&family.
But most of all; I'll have my Jesus.
He's been there all along; I just realized it for real this year.
I got closer with old old friends this year; I made new friends, And got closer to a whole bunch of amazing people that I only saw once in a great while... I realized that theyre the ones who will be there always, not the superficial fake "friends" i've hung out with for the past 16 years. Who've dropped me in a second for boyfriends, and fake people, drugs, and all the superficial stuff thats out there. But hey, superficial, likes superficial.
I've learned I've gotta work on my bitterness.
..ha.
I won't forget this year.
I can't forget this year.
It's been too meaningful.
and as it closes... so will friendships.
So will dreams and hopes.
So will old habits. Good; and bad.
Tonight; I close the door to my past.
I don't want it to be a part of me anymore.
I used to say that it defined me. Made me who I am today.
But really; by keeping it apart of me, has prevented me from the total freedom, and deliverance
God wants to do in me. Do for me.
And I just close the door, lock it and throw away the key.
It will no longer have any hold over my life. :).
I can tell this year is going to be BIG.
Gods going to do HUGE things in me and through me.
And with the rest of us.
Really get ready you guys.
Prepare your hearts for our Maker to have His way!!!
Happy New years!!
Oh .. and I guess I'll do this....
In 2005 I...
[x] broke a promise
[x] made a new best friend
[X] fallen in love
[ ] fallen out of love
[x] done something you swore not to do
[X] lied
[x] drank
[x] went behind your parents back
[X] cried
[x] dissapointed someone close
[x] hidden a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested
[ ] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars
[didnt make any. I never do. ] kept your new years resolution
[^] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life ... [TIMES A MILLION!]
[ ] met one of your idols
[XXXX]changed your outlook on life
[X] sat home all day doing nothing some days
[XXXX] pretended to be sick
[x] left the country
[x] almost died
[x] gave up something important to you
[x] lost something/someone that/who meant a lot to you
[XXXXXXX] learned something new about yourself
[ ] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[XXXXXXX] made a change in your life
[XXX] found out who your true friends were.
[X..when dont i hahaha] made a total fool of yourself
In 2005 I...
[x] broke a promise
[x] made a new best friend
[X] fallen in love
[ ] fallen out of love
[x] done something you swore not to do
[X] lied
[x] drank
[x] went behind your parents back
[X] cried
[x] dissapointed someone close
[x] hidden a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested
[x] kissed in the rain
[ ] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[ ]changed your outlook on life
[X] sat home all day doing nothing some days
[X] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[x] almost died
[x] gave up something important to you
[x] lost something/someone that/who meant a lot to you
[X] learned something new about yourself
[ ] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[X] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were.
[X] made a total fool of yourself
[X] met great people