i dont know how to say this.....

[inside_tommorow]

i wasnt so sure and all the wrecking of my words were caused by a wrecking ball known as your fist and i lied and hid just to be away from you and the other night i had a dream a of a crash and i could have stopped it but i didnt i caused it and we were both face down in our own pool of blood we flew like angels for a split second and landed so abruptly on the asphalt the metal flew as the glass landed in my eyes my vision blurred and my mouth filled with blood and every inch of my body was numb and for a second i felt peace with myself and you and as i lay on the ground i hoped and prayed that you survive this just so you could feel guilty for living but in the end it was i who lived and i lived the rest of my life in guilt not because you died but because i didnt and every night i talked to you up in the heavens and screamed and cried and called you oh so lucky and you stared down and laughed but i woke up and realized it was all to real
the other night i had a dream i was being pulled away from the beach in a strong current the ocean was ripping and pulling at my body it was getting higher and higher until my lungs filled with the salt water and as my face grew blue my body came together and knotted up and as i was sinking like a stone to the bottom of the ocean my life flashed before me and it flashed of a crash and it flashed of you and i playing in the traffic and in the rain and it flashed of all the tears and smiles and kisses and hugs and i realized i was dieing i was slipping faster and faster away i was hoping for one last word with you but it never happened i wanted so much for one last goodbye but instead i drowned in my sleep..