My centennial update.

[inside_she_dies]

So I guess I've been updating this since I was like 13 haha A lot of rough times this has seen. I am happy to say now that I've grown into this great life. Although I've been band-less for a year, I have a fantastic boyfriend of almost a year, Shane McLaurin. It's so weird because every boyfriend I've had has been documented here haha. Well, except for Jason Pinero, my last boyfriend, not to be confused (yeah, with a c :P) Jason Hunsaker. Which, back tracking to him, has basically fallen off the face of the earth. We always kept in touch and would talk for a few hours every month or so, maybe even hang out, but he's gone totally MIA. It's weird, idk anyone who has talked to him. I don't think it's really even that I miss him, just that I'm curious. I would like to know he's doing well. But anyways, Jason Pinero. We dated for nine months my senior year of high school, he was head over heels for me, very sweet, loving boyfriend, however, I didn't love him, I started thinking about breaking up around April and by college in July, I broke up with him. Because of what happened with Effy, I really wanted us to be friends. It's an extremely almost identical situation, except I was in Effy's shoes this time. I understand what happened between us a lot better now, and if he wasnt such an immature bitch, I would tell him that. But, idk, Jason is year younger than me, but like 5 years behind in maturity. Not to say I'm so high and mighty, but he legit acts 12. So I did what I was supposed to do the first time around, and took a lot of space from him, something I didn't do the time before, and hence, aided in the destruction of any further communication between Effy and I. I really tried with Jason, we were such good friends and I guess I probably still care about him a lot but I've just had it with his shit. I let all of his slide at the beginning of the break up because I understood he was still hurt, but it's been almost a year and this motherfucker decides to announce at his show, that I drove out to see and SUPPORT him, that the next song was for me because i hurt him and he hoped that it was awkward and completely avoided me since, plus didnt watch any of the other bands which is kind of dick. No, totally dick. And he went into a room with all of his friends and didnt come out until he left. &it doesn't sound too bad, except for all of the other shit I've ever put up with for the past year. He's texted me once asking about pictures from the show because he couldn't find my facebook, which i deleted and blocked him from, but I didn't respond, and another text today saying "You blocked me? lol Peace." -.- whatev, I mean, it does hurt me, because I obv deleted him from my life due to how much he's been hurting me, but also because I really wanted it to work. I really wanted to be friends, it's so sad, to me, that a potentially great friendship is ruined because he doesn't know how to handle himself. Honestly, just the two of us together = normality. Peace. Add in other people = he has to act like a huge douchebag to me, like, to prove something. I've talked to him about it numerous times, probably too many. I put up with too much, but he obv wanted to push me to the limit and he did. I told him if he kept acting like that I just wouldn't deal with it anymore, so I'm not. It's just so bittersweet. I'm so angry with him and also sad because of the good times we've had together. But it obviously didn't mean too much to him, so fuck it. I just wish that everyone knew, all these people, his friends and family, who think I'M the one who screwed HIM over. I broke up with him for a reason, I wasn't in love, and we were, hell we ARE young. It happens. GET OVER IT. I didn't cheat on him, talk shit, or anything. I was always very understanding and I was a great girlfriend, and he knows it. I guess Effy just put up with less bullshit that I did lol because the same thing is happening...and I'm not happy about it, but it needs to be done. I honestly could rant about this EVEN MORE, but I'm going to move on. Let go and let live, right? So, the new guy.
Shane Christopher McLaurin is my amazing boyfriend of eleven months. We met in class during my first week of college and I fell in love in two weeks. Crazy, I know, but we took it super slow, and I'm even more in love with him now. I don't get bored with him, we have so much fun and he makes me so happy. He's not a musician which is a first, I kind of wish he had a hobby he was super passionate about so i could support him in it and we could share it. But despite that, I've never been this in love. I'm sure I've said that before, but I've only been in love one other time and I was 15. I know what this is and I love it and embrace it. Also, I have a YouTube page for my Hazel Rain music now, so I'm happy about that. This is long as shit, so I'm going to finish up, and maybe I'll update sooner rather than later. Stay classy, San Diego.
-Katherine K. Dugan