Inward thinking...
Everyone's falling in love lately. I don't want to. I just want to be happy being me. There's this guy I've been talking to for a couple of months on line, we might get together. He seems nice, but I know that on line things can always be less than honest. Ugh. I'm not sure I want to get into the whole on line dating thing. Don't know. For now we're just friends.
I've been doing alot of thinking about what I want out of dating. Each guy I date teaches me something more about myself or what is offered. Stupid used to open doors for me. It made me feel special. Turkey... I don't know... Turkey was attentive I guess. Jimmy makes me feel sexy and hot and makes me laugh non stop. Crash has shown me that the passion I seek is out there, that men are still honorable, that you should always laugh at life, not cry. Josh has shown me so much; about being really loved for who you are and protected and cared for. They're my past and while they hurt, I don't mind them. But what is it that I'm seeking seeking? I think I'm looking for that safe haven where I can just lay my head and know that everything will be alright, because together we can take on anything. I know, corny, but I'm a dork.
I've been doing alot of thinking about what I want out of dating. Each guy I date teaches me something more about myself or what is offered. Stupid used to open doors for me. It made me feel special. Turkey... I don't know... Turkey was attentive I guess. Jimmy makes me feel sexy and hot and makes me laugh non stop. Crash has shown me that the passion I seek is out there, that men are still honorable, that you should always laugh at life, not cry. Josh has shown me so much; about being really loved for who you are and protected and cared for. They're my past and while they hurt, I don't mind them. But what is it that I'm seeking seeking? I think I'm looking for that safe haven where I can just lay my head and know that everything will be alright, because together we can take on anything. I know, corny, but I'm a dork.