RAMBLE
a lot has been happening.
for instance, i paid around a grand to repair damages done to my car mostly by neglect and ignorance.
so i feel pretty good about that.
some friend of mine once asked me why people bother believing in ridiculous ideas such as islam and judaism. and the funny thing was, she was really serious about it. i can't even remember who it was who asked me this. i kind of blew it off and laughed. i'd rather not argue about such a subject, especially if its presented in that manner.
i must say i owe great credit to a few close friends of mine for various reasons. for example, if i go off in one of my tangents and convince myself that i'm so damn high and mighty above all the other ignorant urchins in the world i'll always have someone like dana or devan to bring me back to reality.
sometimes, i'll get full of myself. it happens.
i'm kind of going through this crazy stage in life where i hold question and doubt to just about everything i think and/or do. its been like this for the past year or so, and its starting to frustrate the hell out of me.
one of those "i wanna do this, but no, i dont, because of that, but i should still, because this and that, but then again, this" days. only drag it out for 8 months.
is that understandable?
i spent about 50 dollars on books (after selling 50$ worth of video games to EB) in the last 2 days, and already i'm all set to read something i'm borrowing from somebody else.
i dont consider it a waste though, theres two books on poetry (bukowski and billy corgan) and a book by fante and the sound and the fury by faulkner. i WILL get to them before the end of the year. the only problem is juggling all that between finishing the books left over from christmas and all the english homework i have to fuck around with.
i need to get back into photography. oh, how i miss it so.
i like how i was so passionate about it not even this year and already i've changed my major because i dont hold to much faith in whattever talent i have in it.
maybe i just woke up and realized i daydream far too much.
i listened to sunny day real estate today and remembered how jeremy enigk is going to be playing at lollapalooza. i'm not quite sure what to think of it, rumor has it he won't be playing anything from the frog queen, so basically it will all be new to me. new things arent bad though.