find a place with the failed and forgotten
Things have been alright lately.
Been worrying about things with Mallory and I.
Have poured my heart and soul out to this girl, and everytime it seems to be nothing to her. I don't know anymore, I feel I'd do anything for her, yet it doesn't seem to be mutual.
Then other times she seems so vulnerable, and so lost, and so weak, and I don't know what to do. She never talks to me about any of her problems, and it has started to get to me. All I want to do is make sure she's happy, that she's taken care of, but how can I help a problem if I don't know what it is? She doesn't tell me shit, and it makes me angry sometimes. I feel she doesn't trust me with the things that matter.
And if that's the case, I don't know what I'd do. I can't really imagine my days without her, we spend so much fucking time together. I guess it's good that I have a job now.
I am a delivery driver at Hunan's now, it's a good job. It's fun, easy, and all around enjoyable. Not a real job though, can't support myself with that shit I don't think. Need to keep looking. But I like it for now.
Have been stressed out lately, with all sorts of things.
Wish I could just sleep sleep sleep.
Been giving a lot of thought to the military life, would be a good way to get the fuck out of here.
Tonight I am supposed to take Mallory to the movies, and go with her to the downtown bus station to pick up her brother later on in the night, I don't think the movie will happen though. I guess I'll see.
Should hang out with Casualwear and his buddies tonight also, think I would like that.
Gonna try to start updating regularly again.
Been worrying about things with Mallory and I.
Have poured my heart and soul out to this girl, and everytime it seems to be nothing to her. I don't know anymore, I feel I'd do anything for her, yet it doesn't seem to be mutual.
Then other times she seems so vulnerable, and so lost, and so weak, and I don't know what to do. She never talks to me about any of her problems, and it has started to get to me. All I want to do is make sure she's happy, that she's taken care of, but how can I help a problem if I don't know what it is? She doesn't tell me shit, and it makes me angry sometimes. I feel she doesn't trust me with the things that matter.
And if that's the case, I don't know what I'd do. I can't really imagine my days without her, we spend so much fucking time together. I guess it's good that I have a job now.
I am a delivery driver at Hunan's now, it's a good job. It's fun, easy, and all around enjoyable. Not a real job though, can't support myself with that shit I don't think. Need to keep looking. But I like it for now.
Have been stressed out lately, with all sorts of things.
Wish I could just sleep sleep sleep.
Been giving a lot of thought to the military life, would be a good way to get the fuck out of here.
Tonight I am supposed to take Mallory to the movies, and go with her to the downtown bus station to pick up her brother later on in the night, I don't think the movie will happen though. I guess I'll see.
Should hang out with Casualwear and his buddies tonight also, think I would like that.
Gonna try to start updating regularly again.