i need a psychologist
FUCK!! i am going crazy, i dont know what to do. i should be the happiest guy in the world, i mean every thing that i have been wanting for like ever has hapened which isnt even alot. i mean all i have wanted is just someone i can hold and be with and maybe love i dont know i need to sort out my feelings, and know i have that, but, lo and behold all i want to do is cry. i just want to sit on my bed in a ball and cry my eyes out, but i cant and i dont know why. i want to thank you kristin for being there for me i know i can always talk to you. and i want to thank you nichole, for tolerating my presence and letting me hold you when i need to. i just dont know what to do i am overwhelmed but i dont know why, i am sad but i have no reason. i dont know what i am gonna do right now i dont really have anything that i can do. i think i am just too needy. i want to crawl in a hole and just sit there in the dark by myself, which is what i fear most, being alone. god i just dont know what to think anymore. i mean you would think i was happy, i have a nice family, great friends, an awsome girlfriend, and yet i feel like shit. i dnt know maybe i will feel better tomorrow, i am going over to nichole's being around her always makes me feel a bit better.