three weeks
three weeks ago today. i am in a black hole that continues to get deeper and darker. i don't know how to get out but i also don't care. i want to be quiet and left alone. i keep thinking i need to write things down if only to remember, but the thought of it hurts too much. i want to see my boy again and i want to be with him. seems like nothing else matters. i've never known such grief and horrible grabbing choking sadness. started taking something called ignatia 30 this afternoon. just don't know.