a calm resolution
a strange but productive week.
i've gone back and forth on whether or not to go to ohio next tuesday and have finally decided to just do it. i have one job lined up for feb 1st and had a telephone interview for another one yesterday. the telephone interview one will have an in-person interview to follow up but the HR person assured me i'd be okay leaving and having the interview after i get back from my trip. i picked up books for my (possible) insurance test today and will have 2+ weeks to study for that.
i really like the idea of the insurance job for the 2nd phase of my life -- the 20+ years i'll be working still. the people are nice and hard-working and i can tell they will be supportive. the only issue with the job is the lack of benefits. do i feel confident enough in myself that i can do this for the 40+ hours a week and make sure i can buy my own health insurance. if i am offered the other job i'll really have a big decision to make.
but, i'll cross that bridge later. in the meantime, i'll be where i need to be, making sure mom is okay and being close to the phone just in case i have to come back early.
am i still freaking out? yeah, i am when i let myself think about it or it worms itself into my dreams. but, i feel better. i'm doing what i can to even things out and my mind isn't racing like it was a week or so ago. i still have a long road ahead, but now feel like i can do what needs to be done.
i've gone back and forth on whether or not to go to ohio next tuesday and have finally decided to just do it. i have one job lined up for feb 1st and had a telephone interview for another one yesterday. the telephone interview one will have an in-person interview to follow up but the HR person assured me i'd be okay leaving and having the interview after i get back from my trip. i picked up books for my (possible) insurance test today and will have 2+ weeks to study for that.
i really like the idea of the insurance job for the 2nd phase of my life -- the 20+ years i'll be working still. the people are nice and hard-working and i can tell they will be supportive. the only issue with the job is the lack of benefits. do i feel confident enough in myself that i can do this for the 40+ hours a week and make sure i can buy my own health insurance. if i am offered the other job i'll really have a big decision to make.
but, i'll cross that bridge later. in the meantime, i'll be where i need to be, making sure mom is okay and being close to the phone just in case i have to come back early.
am i still freaking out? yeah, i am when i let myself think about it or it worms itself into my dreams. but, i feel better. i'm doing what i can to even things out and my mind isn't racing like it was a week or so ago. i still have a long road ahead, but now feel like i can do what needs to be done.