Sep 09, 2004 15:09
I like the pomp and circumstance and butterflies and all that bullshit hat comes from having interest in another person.
I like the freshness.. the undiscovered... the niave-ness.
I like getting to kno people, but a lot of times, once I kno them I don't care for them anymore.
Thus is probably the reason most boys do not take well to me.
Besides, I think that to most guys I seem so aloof and into myself they do not even try. I put up walls and sort of let people kno how I considor them.
I wish I were more aloof when it comes to the boys I am interested in, but that is def not the case.
THE CASE IN POINT IS I GET SO CAUGHT UP IN MY FANTASTIC VOYAGE THAT I DO NOT EVEN CARE ABOUT THE DESTINATION.
I just want to get drunk and hang out with boys and girls and party and forget that sex and love and all that shit exsists.
Just get drunk and dance and laugh and roll around and give hugs and kisses. i love kisses more than anything.
the hugs is a huge part of this discovery. i need more of them. they're so innocent and nice. and make me feel so safe.
-my beds so empty. like a vaste wasteland of lonely.