XES
Im really tired right now.
Feeling sorta dumb.
My limbs and organs are feeling floppy and lifeless.
Saw Matt last night [and this morning. hah.]
That was fun.
He is a sweetheart of a boy.
Seeing Devon again sometime this week.
We are supposed to hang out and smoke.
I do enjoy his company very dearly.
We had a serious heart to heart and there is a much greater understanding about how things are now.
We agreed about what I always tell people about he and I.
There is so much love and care and understanding, but the two of us in a relationship does not work.
Maybe if we didn't have all the past and all the people in our lives like friends and family then it would, but that is not our reality.
Things are how I had always wanted them.
We are truely friends.
[his parents do not kno we talk now or have seen one another, let alone hung out, because they would not approve, but maybe in time. change is inevitable.]
The beach with Kat last week was magnificent.
Perfection in sand and salt water.
Im so tired and I got what I came for.
...i'll never be your beast of burden.
i walk for miles my feet hurt.
never never never be.
all i want is for you to make love to me...
Feeling sorta dumb.
My limbs and organs are feeling floppy and lifeless.
Saw Matt last night [and this morning. hah.]
That was fun.
He is a sweetheart of a boy.
Seeing Devon again sometime this week.
We are supposed to hang out and smoke.
I do enjoy his company very dearly.
We had a serious heart to heart and there is a much greater understanding about how things are now.
We agreed about what I always tell people about he and I.
There is so much love and care and understanding, but the two of us in a relationship does not work.
Maybe if we didn't have all the past and all the people in our lives like friends and family then it would, but that is not our reality.
Things are how I had always wanted them.
We are truely friends.
[his parents do not kno we talk now or have seen one another, let alone hung out, because they would not approve, but maybe in time. change is inevitable.]
The beach with Kat last week was magnificent.
Perfection in sand and salt water.
Im so tired and I got what I came for.
...i'll never be your beast of burden.
i walk for miles my feet hurt.
never never never be.
all i want is for you to make love to me...