Too much

[insensately]

I feel like i'm going to break down any moment. i don't know what's gotten into me, i think it's a mix of everything. my mind's been very cluttered these few days, but it's always the same few things surfacing in it. some scare me and others cause me pain. sometimes it gets so overwhelming, the anxiety, fear, longing, anticipation, worry... the list goes on.
I need you. but not just you.

And i thought i'd become stronger than this.