Cold inside
All day long i could feel a coldness... that i knew had nothing to do with the temperature of the air. as i stood, and as i walked, i could feel it emitting from inside me. i knew very well the root of it. it hurt. emptiness and longing. maybe i ought to slap myself. then again, maybe not.
A new purpose. and whether it's right or wrong, it's here to stay. hopefully it will only push me harder. i realise now that i really want it to happen.
Jealousy.
There are some things which hurt so much you need an outlet. but when you finally do try to voice it out, the words get stuck in your throat. you just can't say it. for many reasons. and i'm not referring to just my current situation. i think i've faced this a few times before. it really stinks.
And sometimes, even when you know the pain's going to go away, it doesn't make it hurt any less. because it hasn't gone away yet, and because you don't know when it ever will. why do i not have the ability to obtain what i most want? i think i'm sick of myself.
Save me, will you?
A new purpose. and whether it's right or wrong, it's here to stay. hopefully it will only push me harder. i realise now that i really want it to happen.
Jealousy.
There are some things which hurt so much you need an outlet. but when you finally do try to voice it out, the words get stuck in your throat. you just can't say it. for many reasons. and i'm not referring to just my current situation. i think i've faced this a few times before. it really stinks.
And sometimes, even when you know the pain's going to go away, it doesn't make it hurt any less. because it hasn't gone away yet, and because you don't know when it ever will. why do i not have the ability to obtain what i most want? i think i'm sick of myself.
Save me, will you?